Friday, February 29, 2008 . 4:57 PM

omg. for the first time since de 1st day i stepped in here. i actualli slept 7hrs straight without waking up on wed nite!! considering i'm a lite sleeper and the malays staying on the same floor wif me is noisy.. is reali OMG. lol. normally always wake up twice or more de.. =x..

things seem to be getting more fun in bunk.. the guys on the 1st floor starting to noe i'm a gamer le.. cs,standard warcraft,dota,diablo.. everything i oso got play.. lmao.. so now quite often will hav pple to play dota/cs wif le..hehes.. not a bad stress reliever i might say..

work wise.. well.. i cant say its getting better.. but i cant say its getting worse oso la.. coz i am slowly learning and gettin better at it.. gettin pissed at certain people.. but i'm tryin to tell myself to tahan.. i rem something that was told to me.. about people are born wif gd life, or people are not born wif gd life.. i belonged to the 'are not'.. but sometimes its being in the 'are not' then time will pass faster.. (though sometimes abit too fast LOL. too fast til i cant complete work by deadline LOL)..

though i nw everyday thinkin of wat i wanna enjoy after i come back in oct.. i can confirm once i realli come back i sure blur as to wat i realli wanna do first de hahah..

i miss everyone. kudos to all those who's chatting wif me, in tagging or msn or email.. =)

Wednesday, February 27, 2008 . 10:30 PM

first time i'm bloggin offline in 2 weeks. actuali is i 4got to blog when i online juz nw lawl. so nw in bunk typing.

been goin online very often recently. signs of life improving. i can chat alot more. its almost like as if i'm sg ler =). just less of playing online games nia. and cant arrange to meet up. though i AM arranging with everyone i chat with to go out wif me when i come back for home leave XD.. my old buddy, ber, pauline, mayb lod n junjun too.. hmms.. but kinda thinkin who i can ask out together for my bdae.. as in.. i noe i hav to split into afew days, but i try to group as many as i can together.

being in brunei has reali changed my thinkin alot. i miss all my friends. i miss my family. i miss my home. i miss the entertainment in SG. and all of u reading this, if ur complaining dat u did everything in SG already, pls trust me, think again b4 u say that. u dont wat is called BORING until u come brunei n stay for 10mths. so dont take the entertainment in SG for granted. i miss the singapore environment. but i noe it'll be the other way round when i come back. i'll definitely definitely definitely miss the politeness of everyone in brunei, miss the relaxed pace of life in brunei..

i'm slowly thinkin of sooo many things i wanna do, all of which i could not afford to do last time. its good that i'm planning to spend it wif friends. at least i noe the memory will never be painful.

fuzi say i shld change my look, pauline oso ask me to change.. eh u all saying i nw look beri ugly ar.. i like all my clothes now lehs.. i oso got consider changing my look.. do my own makeover or smth.. but i've never decided to purposely look in a particular fashion in my life.. like wat me and andrew said during our poly days.. who gives a fuck wat pple say man? i wear wat i feel comfortable can liao .. TIO BO!?!? =x.. though i kinda feel dat cranky bro of mine got more vain as the years passed, and me.. well.. i just didnt hav the habit of spending on clothes.. i mean.. i go shoppping wif frens or whoever.. and i look at guys clothes.. there has been NO such situation where i saw a shirt and went "WAH i DIEDIE want this shirt/pants/accessory/watever".. -.-" ..

dat one i go back den see hw bahs ok.. clothes if wan buy is nvr ending one.. so i think about other stuff first.. i wanna get a nice pair of shades =p.. i wan to go holiday oso (ANYONE GOT ANY PLACE IN MIND?! GO TOGETHER!! I'M SERIOUS!!) people closer to me shld noe i always dreammmmmmed of going on a holiday wif friends and just having fun.. of course there was a time when i just dreamt of going on a holiday wif my partner. but like i said, wif friends better, the memory will never be painful.. so places like hong kong,japan,america.. ANYWHERE!!! =x.. i wanna get a better hp oso.. and a solid desktop XD.. die.. sounds like i'm gonna spend alot. but heck la. i'm not young anymore le. and once i step out into society i might not hav time for holidays le..

i'm not gonna chiong arcade dats for sure. i've decided only to spend the $ on things dat is worth it. could be in terms of the memories or for the sake of gd times with friends. exceptions will be FOOD =x. bein able to eat gd food is hey-vann~~

dang its late. type type til i din realize its 11.36pm le. SLEEPPPP.. fugging tired =(

Sunday, February 24, 2008 . 1:18 PM

dang. last nite was shiok. played dota from 11+ til 3+ AM !!!! wahahah!! wif some other guys.. but according to those lao jiao de.. last time used to hav more pple playing..

however.. though it was about 3hr+ of dota. oli played one complete game. coz keep having one person dc.. its smth to do with the connection. i think unstable. some random person is bound to dc. den we had to restart all over.

even the last game one of our frens dc. den we no choice. had to continue le. luckily got me.. so 4 of us vs 5 INSANE AI oso can win. nono i not bhb. but my hero made de difference. coz i'm using magnataur. empower all of dem to beef their dmg up. and i initiate ulti , follow up combined wif SF's ulti = pwn.

their skills are all ok. but one of them didnt even noe wat roshan does. LOL. but i suppose we cannot judge by vs AI. 2nite got enuff pple to play vs le. yay. AI is irritating.

ytd i reali didnt go out at all. end up just decided to relax in camp. continue downloading my taiwan audi and dis new game dat my buddy intro (not u ber, is tianshi) =x.. 2dae shld b de same thing. but is coz i duty storeman. =(

Saturday, February 23, 2008 . 12:37 PM

woots. anddd... its the end of the week! like i said it would be.. it WAS a good week.. =)

busy most of the days. but can survive. starting to touch up on the non-work stuffs le. like decorating my bunk, tidying & cleaning up de dust.. re arraged some furniture around.. nw i can lie down n use laptop coz i put a table beside my bed, same height sommore hehe. feels more comfortable. cleared up alot of things in my bag oso.. =)

today wan to go buy some of those stick-on clothes hooks.. but 2dae is brunei de pub holiday.. their new year.. all shops closed.. DUH.. and today is the only day i can book out.. DUH x2.. nehmind.. de day is still long.. if i not booking out den i juz online whole day and hope someone comes online to chat wif me..

Monday, February 18, 2008 . 7:00 PM

first LIVE blogging from camp!! lols. or 2nd at most. previously was bloggin in internet cafe. and there's alot of drafts. for my own memory and no one else =)

had to go internet cafe coz the camp one sot tio. but now rectified abit. at least can connect le. i'll still book out to use internet once in awhile bahs. but mostly will stay in camp le. getting kinda lazy. camp oso feels more like "home". and i realli emphasize on the inverted commas. "home" coz can wear slipper bah long long walk around.. no nd dress up nice nice go out..

busy like fuck today. and i really mean like fuck. running around from my store to office to cargo bay to store to cargo bay to the other end of camp to tank shed to office blah blah.. and chore after chore come in coz i'm duty storeman today.. BUT AMAZINGLY I SETTLE EVERYTHING!!! WOOOTS. though at de end of the day i almost cannot tahan. i slam the door. i reali dowan to fa pi qi in camp lors. coz i wan portray a kind n polite person. but yet i nd to be tough enuff not to kena bully. army is full of fuckers. yes i'm also in army. but i didnt say everyone is a fucker lol. i'm the minority XD

gonna try play some o2jam le. lalala. it'll be a good week for me. muz stay postive. lalala. hehe. hehe.

Saturday, February 09, 2008 . 4:11 PM

wa fuck. cafe playin a song dat makes me fucking angry...
a quote.. and my thought about it..

"...so dat i can prepare myself 4 e person who will treat me right..."

u din treat me wrong totally,but just 1 wrong move is all it takes.. thx 2 pauline's fren hu gave me e advice,whoeva u r..

Thursday, February 07, 2008 . 2:42 PM

such a fake day for me. fake smiles. ber knows i'm tryin to preoccupy myself. ber knows 2yr+ not easy to forget. prob the same wif her. or not i oso duno.. but she didnt seem to think abt this when she did her mistakes. its natural now to think she's having a easier time forgettin everything.

i still havent got that explanation from her. will she give? will she bother?

its true, people never change. i'll never change, she'll never change, but the word i've realized.. is improvement. we all will improve over time. i know i have, i know i still am, i know i will try. as for her, i hope she will too. for the sake of me or her or other people that is a seperate issue which i may or may not ever find out.

woke up around 9+. play game til 12. den went canteen for the camp's 'special' lunch. yea it was special in a sense its oli 2dae they serve this. chicken chop set. but we needed to wear nice clothes to the canteen. lucky someone told me in time if not i wear shorts n army t-shirt down le.. reach there i anyhw took 2 oranges den juz wish commander happy new year. lol got one ang pao from him. it was $6 lol.

happy occasion for most. not for me. not because its away from home. i'm way past those feelings le. i wun beat abt the bush. its aggie dat was on my mind. ate the meal den went back to bunk.

at bunk play abit game til 1+ 2+? den felt so empty all of a sudden. i thought mayb i was tired. so i took a nap. slept til 6+. decided to wake up. cant slp too much if not spoil my body clock.

so its 7.45pm now. finished one round of boss killing in diablo. nth to do now le. mayb will play my ds le.

received new year sms from dad, aggie, and... ravi?!?.. ya.. supposedly "my" friend.. or rather.. "dawnnie's".. pui.. i dun hate ravi.. just the link that he came from .. i hate..

my eyes are wet suddenly.. i think i just feel like releasing.. but i duno how.. i noe my tears wun drop here..

argh.

Wednesday, February 06, 2008 . 2:50 PM

juz back from reunion dinner. not much comments abt it bahs. normal lou hei n normal steamboat. now i in bunk using laptop, but my window view can see the rest of the guys playing fireworks n firecracker. i got gd view sia. gd air con oso =X. gd distraction from my issues. first time i get so close to the fireworks n first time i see actual firecracker oso. wish i wasnt alone. but the moment i start thinkin i start hurting.

however. waiting in my cd-rom is AVP2. my mind is complicated yet simple. i haven see this movie i hate this movie le. not coz its not nice to watch. coz of other things which i think i keep to myself bahs. complicated way of linking things, but simple once the reason is understood.

been afew days. got alot of comments. mostly telling me i made the right choice. got lots of support from them too. and oso they owe me stuff. like outings and visits to their home (this one obvious is ber lol). thx to the 3 pple who tried their best to comfort n make me happy. pauline,karen,ber.. and another one who duno hw to say much but still tryin her best to cheer me up.. my mei.. oh ya.. and henry too.. u guys will never see this. but in my heart,a big thank you goes out to all of u..

its not that i oli find girls to talk to.. i havent been able to get andrew n tianming yet.. and also.. too much of a long story to say le.. so when i'm back in sg i intend to find them to chill out at the beach..

ate a fortune cookie at the dinner. the paper said i am capable,creative,careful, and another 'c' i 4got le.. abi fake to me -.-.. lol. at least i knew got paper inside. better den my fren ate teh whole thing din noe got paper inside til we told him LAWL!!..

aight gonna go watch the movie le.. alone.