Sunday, August 12, 2007 . 7:26 PM

Just decided to share this.. came across this while i was at my previous unit..

As I Mature

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in.

I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people are just assholes.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it.

I've learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. After that, you'd better have a big willy or huge boobs.

I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to others - they are more screwed up then you think.

I've learned that you can keep vomiting long after you think you've finished.

I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, unless we are celebrities.

I've learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades, and there had better be a lot of money to take its place!

I've learned that 99% of the time when something isn't working in your house, one of your kids did it.

I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon and all the less important ones just never go away.

Hmm.. Alot of lessons are similar to what i've learned.. =/
stayed home on wed nite..
thurs oso..
fri went for a bdae celebration few hrs oli..
the only real enjoyable thing i looked 4ward to.. cancelled..
saturday wasnt gd..
and nw.. goin back camp le..
wat a pathetic long weekend..
reali makes me feel like i'd rather hav a short one..

my heart feels so heavy,yet i noe dere's no way i can heal it myself..
alot of things i want and i wish to know, as much as u want and wish to know as well..
alot of things i feel like saying, but i just cant type much le..
let time slowly reveal ba..
Last outing..

Last movie..

Last gf session..

Last toy-catching session..

Last meal..

Last trip back home..

Last words..

Last time i'll visit that particular hdb block..

Last time i'll take that route..

and in army context.... "Last Light.."

dun worry abt me. anyway u wun b seeing wat i'm doin. just take it i'm at home playing games as usual.

Take care... Aggie.

Friday, August 10, 2007 . 3:44 PM

so many injuries happening to me recently..

i just found out the reason y my left foot is feeling pain le.. coz somehw underneath my toe.. some flesh came out.. duno y and when oso.. dat makes it both leg got some injury le.. crap..

anyway.. enuff abt injuries.. i guess all these scars are nth compared to smth else..

later 6pm+ goin to celebrate my nephew's birthday le.. my cute-and-duno-nth-at-all nephew.. oli 1 person noes wat i mean..

after that.. most prob leaving around 9+ 10+.. meet my new tekong mates go pub drink!!!

might b dropping by vivocity to check out movie timings for tml oso.. since my bro's house is near town oso..
damn.. i found out my house got MJ SET!! and got table oso!! nbbbb!!! all this while i tot my parents threw away lers..

now hard time finding kaki.. =.="...

Thursday, August 09, 2007 . 12:26 AM

just back from field camp..

very physically tiring for me.. coz 1stly.. i'm among a batch of recruis who PASSED napfa.. and i cannot.. so i hav hard time catching up.. practically finding desperately any ways n means to motivate myself.. just so hard sometimes nowdays..

the nights were all beautiful.. super clear skies.. plenty of stars.. and a certain memory just flashed back.. an effort to spend the night star-gazing.. but ended up in a taxi ride home due to rain.. there was nvr another chance..

(edit - addon : i saw a shooting star also.. it was moving slow sommore!! n is confirm not a plane coz dun hav those red color light thingy.. it was soooo nice.. but.. instead of feeling happy.. tears formed in my eyes.. =/.. i tried to make a wish.. searched my heart.. empty..)

chatting wif my buddy during one of the nights.. in our tent.. when we couldnt really slp.. he told me some stuff which i guess.. i'll just keep it in mind..

quite alot of things went wrong oso.. digging a hiding place in field camp.. n i kena a place full of big roots n big rocks.. dig til i back damn pain.. temp go til near 38deg.. got heat rash.. and felt d4mn sick til the very last day.. almost wanted to giv up.. coz i fell down also.. and both my knees n shin still hurts til now..

had in mind a plan.. a plan which could make me smile from inside and not just putting a fake smile outside.. but i think it cant b carried out again.. plenty of other things.. i dont think i shld say le..