Monday, December 26, 2005 . 2:28 AM

Merry xmas to all of ya.. haha..

Okays.. quite an interesting xmas for me this year.. totally unlike all the other xmas'es i had in my past 20years.. coz 2dae i went to a malay wedding!!! and NO its not gate crashing hor.. officially invited de.. its one of my honey's friend's wedding..

we wanted to meet at 10.30am at kallang mrt, but i think we both abit nua.. changed it to 11am instead.. mrt trip was long man.. coz the venue is at BUKIT BATOK!! omfg.. the last time i took the east line all the way down to jurong east was like half a year or more man..
reach there le wanted to take bus506.. coz honey did research on hw to go.. haha.. but when the bus came, den we realized, it is an express bus -_-".so didnt take it.. heng the wedding card got put other bus numbers..so we took another bus down.. 3stops nia..

after we alight the bus.. we just follow our noses den can find de place le.. LOL.. coz malay wedding sure alot of fragrant food.. after findin the place, we shyshy n paiseh, coz all malay n seems we de oli 2 chinese pple there, heng got someone approach us ask us wethe bride' fren or the bridegroom's fren. den we got settled down.

1st time in malay wedding.duno the system of hw they do things.so very the interesting.=p it turns out that they always cook soooo much food. is to serve bit by bit to small group of pple. meaning every 2-4 ppl, will hav a 'set' of food. all these while u guys must have thought they probably lay out the food and hav some sort of buffet style. but its more like a restaurant style. u just sit down. the family of the wedding couple will serve u. very interesting. and oh ya. FOOD WAS GOOD~!~ haha. some malays can make a nuisance of themselves in public, but one fact remains, their food is great. mmm.. sedap.. =D

since honey's fren was from her ex-workplace, so naturally she invited most of honey's ex-colleagues too. they toktok alot. me just listen nia.haha. soon the groom came. didnt realli see the groom come. but more of his 'gang' come. coz the groom belongs to a racing team. motorbike racing to be exact. dats wat honey told me. so when we all suddenly heard super loud motors.. we knew thats like a 'signal' that he arrive le.. haha.. i bet the HDB block residents nearby tot simi daiji sia.. mayb even cursing and swearing oso.. coz reali very loud ><..

rest of the day was pretty standard le.. slack at DBG.. honey not feeling that good. so didnt play much basketball oso. went for dinner. honey so gd say she be santa claus. treat me to dinner. sighs. hw i wish i had the cash to not only buy her pressie, but also bring her to nice place n hav nice dinner. end up is she bring me. feel bad coz not first time le. ><. anyway, we thought between pastamania n swensens, so we go checkout swensens, if got long queue we go pastamania. end up NO QUEUE. lols. so swensens it is. she had fish n chips. me had chicken sautjakekskla ( duno wat was the 2nd word.some chim word.anyhw spell.=p ).

again, this xmas was very nice. as far as 2dae is concerned ba. =D one of the christmas days i'll definitely remember for the rest of my life.

ok backtrack to afew days ago.. hehe.. honey gave me not only 1xmas pressie sia.. so touched.. starting say go simlim seesee thumbdrive hw much.. end up $60+.. so kinda dowan.. den went to seesee game.. bought one.. but after that day i try.. now it cocked up my windows abit le.. everytime i startup it'll hav that "windows recovered from a serious error" blahblah shit.. appear one time ok.. but now is everytime.. WTF.. and i just returned the d2 disc to tianming!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cant reformat now if not i no d2 to play le.. WTFWTFWTF.. talk about bad timing again... nbnbnbnbnbnb.... 2nd pressie.. she gave me a piggie keychain.. duno hw to describe it.. but i'll just say that it can be pressed.. den it goes "oinkoink..oinkoink..oinkoink.." and the cheeks go red at the same time too... so cute.. final pressie.. she DID buy the thumbdrive in the end too.. awwwwwwwww.. touched.. 512mb wor... sobs.. ty so much honey.. i luv all the presents..

alright.. goin to slp nw le.. 2molo's a public holiday. cant even go sch to play maple. darn. mayb i'll go out wif honey if she's feeling better. at home reali can go crazy wif nth to do.

Saturday, December 24, 2005 . 1:07 AM

2dae.. spend the whole day wif honey.. hehz.. coz she took the day off.. so earli in the morning she arrived at my hse le.. around 9am+.. den she took over and play my d2 char awhile, while i went to wash up and stuff.. den slept most of the hours later.. coz both of us quite tired in this week..

in the afternn we watched a movie which i burned out quite long time ago.. but i said i wanted her to watch it coz its a funny movie.. and she did enjoy it haha.. after watch le we prepare den go out le..

we took a train to PS.. and there i bought her xmas prezzie on de spot.. so erm.. price she knows.. and i no nd to wrap up coz i ask her to confirm if she reali wanted it.. haha.. i bought her a bigggg piglet.. its now resting on her bed le.. slping beside her.. watching over her.. =p

in other news.. DMV2's e-amuse is up.. we reached arcade around 7+.. i put in 2credits.. but wait til 9.15 le still haven my turn.. honey had to go home le.. cant see me input my name n choose character.. now the system getting more n more chim le.. wont bother to say everything out here..

term test week is over.. nx week is term break.. though 2molo is xmas eve.. and nx week, new year eve, but i dont think i'll be celebrating on both occasions.. this will be the first time in many years.. but current situations reali bth le.. so i think i save the trouble.. either stay in my comfortable home.. or just spend some time wif my honey can le..

this coming sunday.. going to honey's friend's wedding.. haha.. hope got gd stuff to eat.. =x

Monday, December 19, 2005 . 9:44 PM

i reali giv up on life le.. its just not fair..

cried again in bed last nite.. just cant hold back as well as i could all these years anymore..

so many thoughts, so many issues in my mind, some which are obvious, others which are better off not said..

life is not going up.. its downfall all the way for me.. other than the occasional momentary happiness which i get from being easily satisfied..

even the things i hold dear in my heart.. i fear i might lose in time..

i'm trying my best in everything i do.. i really am.. but my willpower is fading..

sorry.. just typing here as usual to release some emotions.. better sign off soon.. using 56k dial-up..