Thursday, September 27, 2007 . 7:15 PM

fucking boring.. my wisdom tooth nvr hurt much at all.. but i oso nvr enjoy much.. =/.. ya i cant eat much or open my mouth too big to chew.. but i definitely can go out.. and again everyone already has other appts.. haiz.. gone are the days when i could always look forward to meeting one person.. now even resort to 'hanging out' with my 'friends' in delp.. which sucks.. probably no one will understand why i put the inverted commas..

i embedded a song in the blog.. its below my tagboard.. but cant auto play lehs.. =x.. if u all wanna listen click play k? =)

Tuesday, September 25, 2007 . 3:23 PM

back from hospital at 12+?? cant recall le.. all i noe is i come back den use com awhile den i bth le.. the numbness starting to wear off.. so i try go slp.. but i think fever oso come le.. so i just turn n toss.. gettin to slp more le den some idiot call my home.. keep ringing.. zzz wake me up.

can oli open my mouth abit sia.. tryin to eat as much porridge as i can.. eh no is suck the porridge.. =/.. den take medi.. haiz.. doesnt feel gd..
woo.. better blog smth nw duno if still got energy to sit at comp later anot =x..

last weekend was ok.. met aggie on fri..played some games.. ate ajisen lols.. very long nvr eat le.. talked mostly abt her job.. den walked around bugis street.. lol heng no shopping spree.. but she still spent more den $100.. coz she bought a tee for me oso out of a sudden.. o.o..

on de way home i oso noticed she secretly put de miniature cartier perfume into my bag.. aiyo.. so touched.. thx alot wor.. she did something dat shocked me on the bus oso.. but i just let her rest.. i duno wats it about though.. ready but not ready? hinting but not making a choice yet? or ur just plain tired n mayb u did the same with the other two also.. i've yet to ask though.. =p

and de reason y i might not have energy later is. i goin down alexandra hospital for my WISDOM TOOTH OP lerz... pluckkkkkk~!!.. pain =/ haiz.. these few days i reali wish to hav u beside me.. but i noe is impossible.. too mahfan le.. sigh.

Friday, September 21, 2007 . 12:15 PM

WOOO U WEET!! WOOHOO!!! I'm goin back to my old unit!!! YEAH!!!

Yaya.. its at yishun.. but it means i'm storeman!! WAHAHHA... I feel so happy.. and safe.. coz i know the clerks n superiors there lers =D.. and they definitely can help me settle all my stuff for overseas posting faster.. =D..

Your Posting Order is listed below:

1.You are posted to HQ ADOC.
2.Your vocation is SUP ASST (COMMS).
3.Your are to report to: Chong Pang Camp, BLK 3, RM #02-23.

Reporting Date/Time:
24/09/2007 at 0800 hrs

wahahahahahhahahah.... =D though i think some things might have changed.. like the bunk.. no longer peaceful.. and i heard from my colleague got FOUR storeman now holy shit.. buuuuuuuuuut... =D HAPPY... =D =D..

Thursday, September 20, 2007 . 3:02 AM

past 2 days was simple.. just rotting at home..

keep thinkin hw things would hav been if not for my fucking attitude last time..

my 2mths in bmt would b a perfectly enjoyable time.. both in camp and out of camp..

even the block leave i have now would be nice n sweet..

but its all a dream.. which will nvr come true le unless i turn back time..

having said that.. time is ticking.. days are passing like nth..

i know very soon it'll be sunday.. and it'll be time to go to my new unit..

as far as the progress regarding a certain issue is concerned.. well i duno if its progressing well or not.. but i know.. time will bring the answer to me one day..

the only ting i headache is how shld i behave or what shld or shld not i do in the meantime..

i teared again ytd or the day b4 after writing n reading some stuff..

i have a very strong regret in me which i think i cannot say at all except.. i wish i hadnt started smth which i tot would be fun for both of us.. just 1mth before i went in NS..

i reali dont know why i'm being put through this.. mayb its to make my heart stronger.. which i think it will be..

or mayb its to really teach me a lesson.. one tight slap to my face or one sharp pierce in my heart.. which i hav also learnt le..

we're meeting this friday.. she suggested it de.. i dont know why but i just felt a high lvl of happiness.. then again mayb its obvious why oso.. as far as my block leave is concerned i suppose this is the last time we'll meet.. unless we arrange for a saturday meeting .. it'll be nice.. can probably catch another movie or smth =]..

It will be good..

Tuesday, September 18, 2007 . 6:25 PM

went to meet aggie ytd..

she say she 5.30 finish work.. so i didnt wan to be late.. took a taxi down from home.. end up reach there she insist on meeting bugis straight.. dun noe why.. den become i take taxi to dbg den mrt to bugis.. =/..

reach there le not even 5mins she reach liao.. i suppose dats her.. always hiding reasons..
played IIDX wif her.. both of us noob.. catch toys abit.. ate dinner.. everything was cool n fun =]

overall had a happy time.. but not that happy.. everything seemed so similar yet different.. alot of times i wan to hug her.. hold her hand.. giv her a kiss on her cheek.. but i hav to hold it..

passed her everything i wanted to pass her.. shoes.. the 'supposedly' 2yr6mth anni present.. and a letter.. i knew u still had feelings.. just that u were tired..

but dat was before i realized.. and now.. i realize the hard cold hurting truth..

u can actuali hav feelings for THREE guys.. and its just been 2mths or so..

i wonder are you really worth waiting for..

yes i'm not pressing you for an answer.. but if there's any more impt time to reveal just abit of wats in ur mind and not hiding every single thing, keeping everyone in doubt.. now is the time.. and perhaps the path will seem more clear..

my words in the letter to you are true.. about what i've learnt, about what i feel, about wat i promise you, about what i propose..

i will wait.. and i wont mind watever's happening now.. because i believe the fog and the mist will be clear once the choice is made.. (and yea by saying that i mean if we're back together).. but it doesnt mean i'm blinded by love le.. if i see the need to step aside.. i will.. and as i've mentioned.. that will be the time when its really 'Bye Bye'.

Sunday, September 02, 2007 . 5:52 PM

man this sucks.. one small little downside about being in this new company is dat we always nd report so early at pasir ris to bookin.. coz go tekong still nd time to transport us into the camp.. 4km away from the ferry terminal.. my family hav a wonderful dinner 2dae.. both brothers and nephews oso here.. but i hav to skip.. coz nd be at pasir ris at 6.30.. zzz.. but anyway like i said.. its just a small downside.. haha..

as for my emo issue. i duno.. i hav a better feeling this week.. probably due to that file dat andrew sent me.. some lesson thingy. really broadened my view of all those everyday emotions.. and i learnt hw to master n control them.. talked wif aggie quite abit.. and well.. i hope my feelings are not mislead.. i muz strive hard to work for what i want le..

pop in 10more days.. my parents will be there.. but (most probably?) just my parents oli.. sighs..

hope i can go thru 24km route march and SOC and BAC safely n smoothly oso.. i dowan to come back during my 10day-leave zzz..