Sunday, November 18, 2007 . 3:27 PM

dang, i'm supposed to go cut hair 2dae, and pick up smth from interchange.. but too nua ler.. and my mama bdae oso 2dae.. so i guess i leave the hair cut to nx week..

so bored at home.. ya i might hav many games in my comp.. but all meaningless le if i'm playing alone.. or not playing for a bigger picture.. and my comp lag, so i cant possibly enjoy.. probably this is wat i'm fated to be.. alone.

hmm. talking abt bigger picture. feel like buying jigsaw puzzle n do. but again it'll b alone, so.. oh well..

i'm not stupid,neither is the other one.. i juz dont know how to discuss or reach a decision when things seem to be hanging in every direction and every place.. not having a firm stand or a view which i can base on wif regards to everything.. its like i'm floating in the middle of a big bubble, and no matter where i see things from, its just one big roundabout.. which i cant take it.. =/

2nd bad dream ytd.. makes it two in 3 days.. am i going crazy? i've never dreamt this much , be it gd or bad, about a single issue in my life.. i wish it was juz like the movie matrix. someone pls get me out of this. and i hope it'll b the girl.

imu, ilu.

add-on. juz emo thoughts earlier. now feeling alot better. its amazing how a phone call can just turn everything around. =). hope ur comp will be back up soon. den u can tok to all ur friends in msn again. and rest well k. monday's gonna be a long n sian n shag day for u at work. u may or may not get to see this in time but nvm. =D

*off to camp lers. lalala~*

Saturday, November 10, 2007 . 11:42 PM

i just feel so happy to see a tag, a testi, somehw dat feeling of warmth came back.. the same warmth as i had those 2yrs+. the same warmth whenever i was outside the past few mths n see couples happily holding hands,hugging,etc and think of us =/

now she's feeling sick. and i'm worried sick. she shld b slpin nw. or at least trying to. i somehow think the sickness will prevent her from slpin soundly.. haiz. hw i wish alot of things wernt that restricted.. if i could i would just go over to her house to pei her the whole of today until she has to go ahma hse.. then again i didnt ask whether anyone at home anot.. but dats just why i wish thinigs werent that restricted.. if not i can just go over n suppliesss her... i cant help thinkin about how it would b alot nicer if i stayed near her.. like certain pple.. =/..

listening to huang hun now.. memories flowing back.. i'm gonna be emo ler.. T_T

Friday, November 09, 2007 . 1:17 AM

ups and downs , mixture of everything so far this week.. emotions.. decisions.. hmm. time passes so slow, yet so fast.. stuck in a matrix which i cannot comprehend..

just back from bugis.. another nice day, at least as far as company is concerned.. bunny tails are so nice to play with F3 =x..

i nd to control my spendings alot more in camp this mth.. i was realizing that i starting to spend abit more coz at my unit every morning sure go tea break.. =.=.. cannot let it be a habit.. everyday can save at least $1.50..

i had a sweet dream on sun nite.. very sweet dream.. i dream i was hugging her.. and she slipped the ring back onto my finger.. and i cried.. obviously tears of joy.. but then i woke up.. and my heart kinda dropped for a moment.. =/

i completed FF3 on DS lers.. its about light n darkness not being balanced, and the only pure force that can fight and bring back the equilibrium is HOPE. it is the only pure light in each and every human being. kinda true for me now. all i have is hope. everyday i'm hoping.

God didnt give me what i wanted, instead he gave me what i needed. this is the last sentence of an email which i saw in camp. it was meaningful, the whole thing. nd to write down n post it up again. it kinda gave me more strength to carry on wif my situation upon reading it, even after seeing smth which is dated about 1mth ago, very hurting.. abit backdated coz i very long nvr login n see.. if u noe wat i mean, i'm sorry about that issue, juz hope wat u said in there is past le..

Author's Note: If u dun understand anything in this post, dats coz it isn't meant for u to understand. I've read thru wat i typed and yes its confusing, LOL. So to be more direct, if you're a random reader, juz dun bother abt the parts which u dont understand, coz its not meant for u =)

Sunday, November 04, 2007 . 8:09 PM

had a little bit longer weekend dis week.. coz i had my unit cohesion outing to safra yishun on fri.. just some simple bowling session.. lols.. but spent almost my whole friday at lan.. coz there wasnt anyone outside to meet.. and camping at home isnt exactly wat i'm looking forward to start off my weekend oso.. zzz.. wat to do.. fucked up pc at home oso..

saturday was quick oso.. hopped around afew games in the afternoon.. den went for steamboat wif the DM gang.. aggie says she sms me last minute say she wanna come.. but i didnt receive it at all.. luckily she still made it in time b4 we started.. lols coz the guys couldnt resist playing GF6th mix abit b4 eating..

surprisingly me,aggie,and cheekeen were the ones who lasted longest leh.. the rest either appetite small.. or all cmi at chionging steamboat liaos..ate finish around 8+.. went to arcade again.. den off to bugis le.. aggie told her papa she 11.30 den reach home coz we still eating.. LOL.. but end up we 11.30 den take bus from bugis home sia. i 4got to see the time.. which is unusual whenever i'm wif her.. coz i dowan her to reach home late n kena scolded by her parents for nth.. sent her home den went to bus stop.. kept thinking whether to take taxi home anot coz it was MIDNITE le.. but i see the schedul.. stil got bus.. so heng.. took 23.. den heng still got 21 at safra.. reached home around 1+ .. but i was very happy.. it was a short outing.. but.. for once in the past few mths.. my heart reali felt happy..

as for 2dae.. din do much lors. played a custom map in WC which occupied afew hours but i think is purely waste of time. played abit DS. den napped 1hr+. den stone. nw packing to go back camp le.. i'm just sian that i cant get to slp on my bed 2nite nia. and also sian abt the fact that i hav to carry my big duffle bag all de way to yishun.. but other den that.. i'm happy =D.. really happy =D