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2009-02-06T01:24:00.000+08:00

On the first day, God created the dog and said:

'Sit all day by the door of your house and bark at anyone who comes in or walks past. For this, I will give you a life span of twenty years.'

The dog said: 'That's a long time to be barking. How about only ten years and I'll give you back the other ten?'

So God agreed.

On the second day, God created the monkey and said:

'Entertain people, do tricks, and make them laugh. For this, I'll give you a twenty-year life span.'

The monkey said: ' Monkey tricks for twenty years? That's a pretty long time to perform. How about I give you back ten like the Dog did?'

And God agreed.

On the third day, God created the cow and said:

'You must go into the field with the farmer all day long and suffer under the sun, have calves and give milk to support the farmer's family. For this, I will give you a life span of sixty years.'

The cow said: 'That's kind of a tough life you want me to live for sixty years.How about twenty and I'll give back the other forty?'

And God agreed again.

On the fourth day, God created man and said:

'Eat, sleep, play , marry and enjoy your life. For this, I'll give you twenty years.'

But man said: 'Only twenty years? Could you possibly give me my twenty, the forty the cow gave back, the ten the monkey gave back, and the ten the dog gave back; that makes eighty, okay?'

'Okay,' said God, 'You asked for it.'

So that is why for our first twenty years we eat, sleep, play and enjoy yourselves. For the next forty years we slave in the sun to support our family. For the next ten years we do monkey tricks to entertain the grandchildren. And for the last ten years we sit on the front porch and bark at everyone.

Life has now been explained to you.

There is no need to thank me for this valuable information. I'm doing it as a public service.

2008-12-16T00:01:00.001+08:00

The year is made up of 365 days, each having 24hours. 12 of which are night hours, which adds up to a total of 182 days. This leaves you with 183 days to work minus 52 sundays which leaves you 131 days to work minus another 52 saturdays which leaves you 79 days to work.

3hours each day are set aside for eating and 1hour for bathing, going to toilet which adds up to 60days, which leaves you only 19days for working.

You are entitled to 14days for your vacation which means you have 5days left for work minus 4days which u usually take off due to illness or other emergencies which leaves you only 1day to work, which happens to be a labour day, which is a holiday....

SO WHY ARE YOU TIRED!?!!?!??!

2008-12-15T00:16:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!

2008-12-12T00:39:00.002+08:00

reading back my drafts, wow i realized from sep 29th, realli din blog til this mth sia.. HEHE.. boring life i have la.. and i'm serious. haiz.

today, went to settle my craving for kushinbo. yes i went to eat kushinbo, DUH. but pauline was uber busy, changed the meeting time from 7pm to 8pm. THEN at 8pm she still at CCK. so we reached and started eating at 8.45. can only eat til 10pm. HAIZ. i only ate ONE full plate of snow crabs. plus the usual chawanmushi, paper steamboat, doryfish, beef.. but the value i ate is like.. half nia.. wasted $.. ARGH..

anyway. i dont blame pauline. she was so busy bahs. but i guess this will be the last time i eat kushinbo for quite a loooong while. coz.. haiz. my bank acct nd to minus another digit from the front again, to help out father. means i have to cut on other expenses if i still intend to slack and enjoy til CNY.

i think i have afew new year resolutions, and maybe some wishes.. but can i make them all?? =((... no rule dat says i only can have one wish hor.. =(((

take care lexx!! goin in ns in less den 12hrs!!
side note: i ORD in 72hrs!! LOL! no pun intended. :P

ok. time to bath.

2008-12-08T23:05:00.001+08:00

such a nice song..

退后 | Tui Hou | Retreat
Vocal : Jay Chou
Album : Still Fantasy

天空灰得像哭过
The sky is so gray that it looks like it just cried

离开你以后
After leaving you

並沒有更自由
I did not gain more freedom

酸酸的空氣
The sourness from the air

嗅出我们的距离
Smelling out our distance

一幕锥心的结局
A scene of of heartbreaking ending

像呼吸般无法停息
Like breathing, unable to stop.

抽屉泛黄的日记
The yellowed diary in the drawer

榨乾了回憶
pressed dry our memories

那笑容是夏季
That smile is summer

你我的过去
Our past

被順時針的忘记
Has been forgotten as time goes by

缺氧过后的爱情
A love that lacked oxygen.

粗心的眼泪是多余
Careless tears are unnecessary

我知道你我都没有错
I know that it is not your fault or mine.

只是忘了怎么退后
We just forgot how to step back

信誓旦旦给了承诺
We made promises to each other with confidence

却被时间扑了空
Yet it has been emptied by time

我知道我们都没有错
I know that it is not your fault or mine

只是放手会比较好过
It's just that letting go would make things easier

最美的爱情回忆里待續
The most beautiful love is to be continued in our memory

2008-12-02T00:01:00.002+08:00

ok, yes i noe here oso got afew generations of spiders liao.. but realli nth much to blog..

now got abit of time, coz i'm xferring files from my laptop to... MY NEW COMPUTER!!! .. i'm so freaking excited and happy about this.. well its actually the 1st i spent more den 1k on a desktop, thanks to my brunei posting if not i wun hav the spare cash for this anyway. also 1st time i bought the entire set instead of just the motherboard, which i hav always been doing since poly days.. also 1st time i using 19inch lcd monitor sommore, and even more exciting is its a QUAD core, not dual core.. wif 4gb ram, 500gb hdd, solid graphics card.. but yea, fork out more $ of course get better stuff, just that muz understand, these kinda com specs used to only exist in my dreams, dats the main reason why i'm damn high.. cant believe i own such things now..

side track abit.. i hope i'm not suffering from those kinda psychological thingys.. where actually i'm sad, then spend such cash to make myself happy nia =/.. coz by true fact, lets just say i havent reali been myself for quite awhile.. or mayb this is my new self le.. lol. wat random crap am i talking.

anyway. nx update. i ORD in two weeks!! nono. LESS den two weeks!! 13days!! =X 1 day alot diff hor!! 2years went past just like that. time really passes fast. lotsa things hav changed to in this time span. -stops here-.

lol. not many pple wil try this idea, oli like-minded pple having e same frequency as ming and me will do it. the big Ikea storehouse, sells hotdogs at $1 ONLY. FREE FLOW sauces and drinks. HOLY SHIT. ming ate 4 on saturday. i ate 4 oso. and nutnut ate 3. haha. there was also a food court there, selling a bowl of prawns. YES a bowl of just PRAWNS. for $3.90. pic not taken coz we didnt buy in the end. it was OUT OF STOCK.. ming show me the pic.. minimum oso i saw at least.. 20 prawns in the bowl.. for a freaking $3.90!! its not hay bee incase anyone's wondering =p..

ok tired le. shall blog again nx mth. LOL. jk.

2008-09-29T19:23:00.002+08:00

its weird. got internet le but i hav nth much which i wanna blog abt liao.. almost like as if wat i wanted to say i already tok cock wif the pple i go out wif.. den abit lazy to re-say it here..

hmm. orite.. one weird thing dat did happen on saturday.. i was waiting for aggie at somerset mrt.. and its realli fated that i so happened to decide NOT to go upstairs to the control station, but to just wait outside the train til she reaches, coz she had stomach problems so abit late. it so happened that calvin and ming were at the head of the train, they came out and walked past me, den cal turn back n saw me coz he said he felt like got someone familiar at the corner of his eye.. rofl.. so end up we had dinner together.. seems it was to celebrate cal's bdae .. heng ah.. ate @ kushin bowl wif cal,yongbin,nut,ming,me,aggie,kenny and... YITING!!! .. why i caps her name.. coz i think i havent seen her for dinosaur years.. her dressing totally changed.. gd for her.. and knowing kenny and her history.. hope this time they'll make it =P.. it really proves that even though shit happens, its not the end, still can start afresh de =)

tml half day.. wed hols.. thurs leave.. fri??? PLAN TO MC!! ROFL! hope can nia =/

2008-09-22T12:17:00.000+08:00

wookiesss!! finally got my internet today!!! wahahahaahahaahahaha!!!!

2008-09-16T23:14:00.000+08:00

Wha Rao Ay!! pauline say she got xtra tix for superband, ask me pei her go! BUT i from camp come out oso earliest 6pm! nd reach mediacorp by 8pm! how de can! very de hard! T_T.. so suay =(...

and i just rem, i tot ming say 2dae supposed to hav some bbq or smth at east coast park or smth, gathering for mooncake festival or smth.. BUT no update from him... bah nvm.. i made use of the time to settle other stuffs.

i hav to tahan this whole week without internet!!! and i duno if nx monday can apply leave anot!! ARGHH @ 1st part!! ARGHHHH @ 2nd part!! ARGHHHHHH!!! *throws table*

2008-09-14T23:13:00.000+08:00

LOL. today then i get a chance to blog abt wat i did. coz i was out since FRIDAY. =X

actualli supposed to go for my usual overnite lan (alone sadly, coz no kaki wad =/.. ) but since i was goin out for dinner, so met up wif aggie for dinner, hang out awhile, and after she left, luckily i had cheekeen,nicholas,jun rong to pei me til near midnite, then took a taxi over to meridian hotel. only i goin, not them, coz i'm meetin girls for night of fun!! ok that was fake. i went meridian hotel de LAN SHOP, meet ming and calvin for lan =D

initially wan play 8hrs only, since ming cant get 21hr package for us, so me n cal had to pay hourly. BUT, with the help of their other frens there, 21hr package for all 3 of us is possible =D. is 21hrs for $21.. LOL! so the next 21hrs i no nd to say wat happen luh. and i cant believe i can tong from fri midnite, til saturday 5pm+. den cal had stuff to settle at home, den since all gettin sleepy so go home lerr. and me? upon reaching home, i about 7+ bath finish, just lie down on bed awhile nia, KO!! nx thing i open my eyes.. 6AM!!!.. WOW. but since so early, i go ko again. den really woke up 10+..

today being the last day of my break.. din reali wanna stay at home.. so again i went lan, but not overnite, just from afternoon til night.. lols..

2008-09-08T06:11:00.002+08:00

ok in lan shop nw, but uneasy to blog, but again now nobody around me so i quickly blog bahs..

basically today was a long day. woke up at 7am den turn n toss til 9am, couldnt sleep, mayb coz too excited, yet also too scared coz i no alarm then i dowan to oversleep on the day of my flight.. i still had some final stuff to pack, like toiletries etc etc..

not many pple sent me off, but i'm still surprised that afew sent me, coz they purposely woke up early for me, and some of the guards at the guard room were abit regretful they had duty lol..

usual tok cock wif them b4 going in the gate, then on the flight back oso nth much, except i realized i wasnt flying SIA, but SilkAir instead.. the plane not as spacious as SIA, and it doesnt hav the built in TV at the back of every seat, meaning passengers cant even get updates on the flight status etc.. abit no gd if u ask me..

touched down in sg, called drew about his booze, and bought some perfume.. i tot only drew n ming coming, but aggie came too.. tot she said she had to rush home or smth, but thx to all for coming =).. alot of times i realized i wanted to show them alot of stuff, but i tend to hold back.. abit hard to explain why, but i guess it just gotta do wif the awkwardness.. k nvm..

after that, went wif ming to sim lim, take some price catalogs for my new PC.. couldnt find my usual shop liao leh, i hope it didnt go bankrupt or anything.. zzz. i hav alot of faith in that shop, alot of my stuff i buy from that shop.. but now i check online.. the nearest similarity to the shop name seems to be at 6th floor, which is the only floor i didnt check coz i confirm rem it was 4th or 5th floor. will go back again to see, and in the meantime i ask ming to check wif his bro. needa do abit of homework, but needa do it fast.. i dowan to keep coming lan shop..

amazingly, we bumped into alot of pple.. at simlim we bumped into mervin, and at bugis we bumped into yongbin n nut.. told mervin to organise MJ.. but other pple hav work tml, i kinda expected it so i had no issues. bin n nut left for work arn 7+.. we had nth to do from 8+.. so i suggested we go get a drink n sit n chat, ming say he had a budget so i just say go 7-11 lor, the place where we "originated" from.. LOL.. he and me know wat it means.. =X and surprisingly we chatted all the way til 10.45.. mostly abt the com stuff and dota.. and i brought up the idea of jioing him n drew to beach at nite like old days, he still giv me the excuse of "now life is different, online chat etc etc" i felt like slapping him, coz can a computer giv u beautiful stars to see in the sky? unless u tell me your monitor is 1345326363453224293752inch wide. and if your monitor can giv u sea breeze, dats... scary. but after that he got my point, it wasnt to just slack, bt to appreciate watever we went thru in our lives and just do wat we love to do, TOK COCK. =x oh well.

and my small small wish came true. mei sms me ask if i can dota 2nite at 11pm. dat was why we stopped at 10.45pm. ming go home, me go lan. and play til now. and i'm goin home~~.. lucky i wearing long sleeve shirt. sit bus12 later not cold.

and lastly, nx few days (i hope its ONLY afew days) wun b bloggin, coz at home no internet, and spending $ to blog at lan shop isnt reali my idea of value for money. lol.

JUN! if u see this.. find a day go out eat leh! pauline oso wanna meet up for dinner, so when u free???.. coz i noe u using mag's phone now, but your number isit still same?? u lost ur hp i logically presume ur simcard was there as well. or u already had it replaced?

2008-09-05T11:44:00.004+08:00

wha, ytd i know i was gonna receive my EOT plaque, but wat i didnt expect is ANOTHER plaque from my branch. i'm e first to receive dis lol, and everybody see le oso go WHAAAAA!!! LOL! so happy yet so paiseh =X..

this is the EOT plaque (From the camp)

THIS is the plaque from my branch (i still abit shocked lol. kena super stun lol)

2008-09-04T10:05:00.002+08:00

wa lau. sms janice twice bo reply =/.. i wanna know if sunday they having any other things after their ROM.. coz since some of our old friends will be there too.. mayb she too busy wif her happy event lol..

today and tomorrow i'm OFF!! haha. officer say i cant clear but i still stubborn go clear. i wun let my off kena eaten just like that. roarrr..

kinda wondering if i shld giv a EOT treat to my pals here.. i guess i'm gonna go around asking today..

i confirmed my flight timing le!! its in my prev post.. drew is coming, but only coz i buying booze for him -.-".. and ming.. well he didnt really say he's coming, but hope to see him again =D.. dats about it.. i realli nvr go around n ask or announce personally abt my flight back this time.. =/

2008-09-03T10:14:00.001+08:00

ok, flight confirmed..

SQ 181
ETD 12.50pm
ETA 2.50pm

and i clear off tomorrow and friday! wahahhaa...

2008-09-01T17:52:00.003+08:00

my final weekend is over.. left 5more days! ok still got one more saturday but i duno wanna go out or wad oso lol.

watched money no enough 2 on saturday, nice show! i didnt get to catch it in SG coz it came out the day after i flew back to brunei -__-".. but gd oso, here movie ticket is $6 for weekend nia, and $4 on weekdays. so far contrast compared to home. though the plot is very typical SG style, but still i laugh like siao, and eyes oso got wet at the touching part =(

then, dinner at a jap restaurant, name is Takara Restaurant. very authentic and nice food! 1st time eating, and glad i got chance to come b4 i leave brunei. no pics coz i was kinda concentrating on keeping myself warm, it was raining freaking heavily after the movie and we ran to the restaurant, distance we ran is like running from orchard to somerset mrt. LOL.

sunday, went to play billiard, though it was suay day for me, but still had fun =). i just luv billiard n pool. not so much of playing actually, but the friends that i'm with. then ate bak ku teh and claypot rice. SHIOK LAH!

haven get details on my flight yet lehs. but most prob i'll post it here once i know, since msn is not easily accessed for me. i normally just come canteen n use the terminal for abt 10mins or so...

singapore, wo lai le!!!

2008-08-31T20:26:00.003+08:00

time for pictures!!

My prev post was mentioning about my dream cat, this is the one!! i saw in the other camp then i take pic of it! so cute! it guai guai sit there let me take pic oso. but the light blue eyes, look more like light green, or just white in this pic =( but still, i know its my fav cat ever =D

then, my fren wan to di siao put another kitten beside, but this oso guai guai! it sit down beside den look at my camera! so cute!

And, this 3rd kitten was sleeping on the chair, and not just any normal pose.. it was sleeping like this -.-". i see le oso LOL, coz my fren made a comment, sayin this cat slp like damn shiok lidat, the arms put above the head, haha..

2008-08-29T17:56:00.002+08:00

been super busy these few days. coz teaching understudy!! wahahahaha!!

days are counting down!! single digit liao!! 9 more days!!!

went for final interview wif my officer. he gave a wonderful feedback wif regards to my performance here the past 9mths. made me feel so bad that i sometimes tok bad about him. deep down i really thank him for everything he taught me while i'm here, and the chance to do the secretary job oso.(which he mentioned i did a very gd job at that too,yay)

got my own clearance form to do now! i feel so happy coz all these while is i sign clearance for pple who left lor! now finally is pple sign for me! =X

just received news from jun, she oso bought F480 today ler. but only taking the phone tml. she buy is because her own phone spoilt, and she say actually her dream phone now is iPhone, but too ex, so buy F480. i still find it kinda weird, actually would b more practical to buy just a not-so-gd phone, then wait for iphone price to drop (dats if u really die die want to get iphone). for me, well.. i admit i oso drool when i heard about iPhone 3G releasing this mth (i haven update myself whether its out already or not and the price..), i oso want iPhone 3G!! but i think i better not be greedy. F480 from far looks like omnia. LOL!!

tml going to watch money no enough 2. dat time i in SG, i fly back just 1 day before it released -__-". and here in brunei, it just came out on the 28th. so we going to watch tml. and sunday we're goin to play billiard again! packed weekend XD, coz enjoying all i can wif the guys b4 i leave. haiz. i'm gonna be so sad to leave (and i expected i'll say this even when i first got here last year)

i have many pics to put but i'm not using my lappy now! i went to the other camp to orientate my understudy there too, and i saw they feeding a cat, WHICH IS EXACTLY THE ONE I DREAM OF HAVING!! white fur and blue eyes!!! OMGOMGOMG!!! DAMN CUTE! so i took pic!! but due to contrast of light, the blue eyes kinda look like lime green, or white-ish green. =(. is actually light blue eyes!! then my fren go put another cat beside when i taking pic of my dream cat, and the 2nd cat auto sit down guai guai and look at my hp, like as if it knows and posing, LOL! and and and... one more kitty.. was sleeping on the chair.. and his position like the "koon ga si be song" type.. the picture will say everything, so i'll post them up either tml or sunday bahs.

hmm. this time round i nvr really go ask around who wanna fetch me, somehow i'm holding back coz i feel abit thick skin if i do so.. =/.. then again, i duno that who knows i'm flying back on the 7th oso.. heh.

and, janice, i know u wont read my blog, but so sorry i will miss your ROM on the 7th morning!! argh! i try and try to push for me to fly back one day earlier but due to SAF rules.. cannot =(.. FREAK! now i know how it feels to miss something which is once-in-a-lifetime.. haiz.fucked up. the next best thing i can do is push to fly back early sunday. probably leave camp around 8+am.. den rush down asap to meet u guys (confirm wun be at the ROM, but nvm).. *prays*

2008-08-25T18:48:00.006+08:00

went to eat sushi on friday.. took a pic of the beef teriyaki that i ate but it was after i ate halfway LOL! always cant rem to take pic b4 i eat ZZZZ.. so i dowan to post, it doesnt look nice =x

spent de weekend doin nth much, saturday on duty so cant bookout. whole day play dota. haaaaahhh.

sunday was more packed. 3 of our pple EOT, almost the whole of my branch went to send them off, even my logistics officer and another warrant officer. lol. and as weird as it may sound, one of them was crying. not literally tears flowing down, just super red eyes. so sad =(. he didnt want to look back and giv a final wave after he entered the gate n was walking away out of sight. but the other two were talking to him n tryin to tok jokes lol. he was the "silat master" in our camp, he performed silat during our event, and due to his nice build coz he's fit, he looked very professional. its so ironic that even a person like him cried. surprising also was that thruout the whole time from camp he appeared very normal. only when the moment to go thru the gate then he breakdown. it reminded of me 9mths ago. breaking down only in front of the gate.

anyway. its gonna be my turn in less than 2 weeks now. and the words i've been sayin to so many pple, now i'm hearing those words being said to me.. "wa understudy come liao, happy bo?", "when EOT?", "shiok anot replacement come liao?".. haha.. life is a cycle after all..

after sending them off, went to play billiard, and number ball.. apparently this is my 2nd session in 3-4years, and i got my form back liao.. feels gd.. memories of pavilion and my early poly days..

today our branch had a cohesion outing, just spend afew hours in the afternoon visiting two MUZIUMs... dats hw the bruneians spell it.. LMAO!! .. (ok its MUSEUM incase anyone doesnt know wat it realli means)

we saw a freaking huge BEE NEST at the museum entrance lor!! it was just at 3rd storey height lor!! i cannot tahan i take out my hp to take pic.. zoom in all de way liao!!

next up! i played wif a snake last week in camp! is realli a small snake, the head is only our thumb size. but today i found out in the museum that the snake can grow to this size!!!

OH MY F***ING GOD!!

2008-08-22T17:38:00.002+08:00

being uber busy really makes time fly like nth. zzz. and really makes u forget about some other things. zzz x2. so if jun nva say i oso wun realize i nva update for one week. i still thinkin i just updated afew days ago.

again, been uber busy with camp events. since i'm from logistics, moving the tables n chairs is always our job. and not a easy one. coz its not the primary sch chairs or tea tables we're moving, but freaking heavy duty ones. den rehearse so many times. and my role kena change 3 times -.- from stall manager to road marshaller to just being attached to observe outside camp n notify which vip coming. oso shiok la. no nd to face all the big shots in army. but we did have a chat with CDF. nice guy actually.

ok umm. since 14th wat happen ar.. OK i did my LAAAAAAAAAAAAST guard duty on 17th.. yeah!!! and luckily it was a peaceful one.. no weird stuffs happening.. we even "4got" to go for one of the prowling timings.. 4am one.. so i slept from 11pm to 6am.. hahaha.. add on my guard rest from 8am to 1pm the next day. shioks.

hmm. i shall now take a moment to congratulate allll the couples who got married on 8th August 2008 and 20th August 2008. wonderful dates, 080808 & 20082008.

one more thing! we played around with a snake in camp on 19th!! it was small one though. all take turns to take picture with it hahaha. now waiting for fren to upload the pics to com nia LOL. so sad, around here i always tempted to use hp take pic, but hav to be careful, all it takes is one fucker to sabo me den i die le.

2008-08-14T19:44:00.000+08:00

Wha.. so touched dat ber mentioned me in the 2nd last qn of this quiz i took from her blog.. hmm. decided since i nth to do, i shall do de quiz too. hope ber sees this, she'll need a gd luff =D

1) Are your parents married or divorced?
Ans: Uh, i think they married..

2) Are you a vegetarian?
Ans: Yes. And i'm a meat-lover too. =X

3) Do you believe in Heaven?
Ans: Heh-Van?? Yeshhshirr!

4) Have you ever come close to dying?
Ans: Ya when i was learning how to hold my breath underwater.

5) What jewelery do you wear daily?
Ans: Bling bling counted?

6) Favorite time of the day?
Ans: Any time dat i'm not supposed to work.

7) Do you eat the stems of broccoli?
Ans: Yeah...

8) What is your hair styling agent?
Ans: None. not like i need any. My hair's solid enuff ROFL.

9) Ever have any surgery? If so, when?
Ans: Might need one to repair my heart =p.

10) Do you color your hair?
Ans: Using crayons? or paint? or wat? Nah find it kinda hard to do it with those. (anyway i believe the word shld be DYE,not color =x)

11) What do you wear to bed?
Ans: If ur a guy, _|_ off. If ur a girl, ur welcome to find out urself =D

12) Have you ever done anything illegal?
Ans: Yeah, and i'm proud of it.

13) Can you roll your tongue?
Ans: *rolls tongue*

14) Electric razor or blade?
Ans: I have experience with both XD.

15) What kind of shoes usually?
Ans: Sports shoes. Great for all occasions.

16) Do you condone Abortions?
Ans: Yeah. But i wouldnt blame the girl. I'd fuck the guy upside down first(not literally) for being unable to control,unable to miss the target when he shld miss,unable to spend freaking $5 to get some protection.

17) What is your Hair color?
Ans: Nigga-black.

18) Future child's name? Boy or girl?
Ans: I'd like a boy and a girl. I'd name them boyboy and girlgirl. (ok i'm joking with the 2nd part)

19) Do you snore?
Ans: If ur a guy, li huan lo?!?!. If ur a girl, ur welcome to come find out =D u wont be dissapointed unless snoring turns u on -___-"""""""""

20) If you could go anywhere in the world where would it be?
Ans: Japan,Korea,Thailand,Taiwan,America,Paris,UK,Brazil... wat? aiya u nvr say limited to one place or wad ma! =D

21) Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
Ans: No.

22) If you won the lottery, what would you do first?
Ans: Hug whoever's nearest to me (SERIOUS!!) but of course lets hope its a girl =D

23) Gold or platinum/white gold?
Ans: White gold... mmmmm...

24) Hamburger or hot dog? Which one comes faster?
Ans: My hot dog should come the fastest IMO. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAH!!! but then again it might not be a gd thing.

25) If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be?
Ans: The thought of that sucks. I'd choose my fav food, but eating only that for the rest of my life would make it my most hated food -_-"

26) City, beach or country?
Ans: Definitely country.

27) What was the last thing you touched?
Ans: Living or non living? xD

28) Where did you eat last?
Ans: Cookhouse lol.

29) When's the last time you cried?
Ans: Cant really rem...

30) Do you read blogs?
Ans: Yes yes...

31) Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex?
Ans: -________________________________________-......

32) Ever been involved with the police?
Ans: Nah. Police uniforms dont turn me on.

33) What's your favorite shampoo and soap?
Ans: Dove & dettol imo.

34) Do you talk in your sleep?
Ans: Havent had any feedback dat says i do, so...

35) Ocean or pool?
Ans: Pool (getting tired..)

38) Window seat or aisle?
Ans: Window (Getting more tired..)

39) Ever met anyone famous?
Ans: SAF-wise got ba.. CDF.. COA..

40) Do you feel that you've had a truly successful life?
Ans: I've had a successful gaming life. HEHE.

41) Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?
Ans: Twirl... (realy tired)

42) Ricki Lake or Oprah Winfrey?
Ans: Who da hell is ricki lake?

43) Basketball or Soccer?
Ans: Soccer.

44) How long do your showers last?
Ans: I dont time, but thanks to the motion sensor we have in our toilets i know i take 10mins. I always finish around the time the lights go off. ZZZZZ@#%@$%#$^%#%$^....

45) Automatic or stick shift?
Ans: Hmmm.. stick shift is more cool =p

46) Cake or ice cream?
Ans: Ice cream cake..

47) Are you self-conscious?
Ans: Duno..

48) Have you ever drank so much you threw up?
Ans: Nope.. Lim bei zai =X

49) Have you ever given money to a begger?
Ans: Honestly.. nope..so is it good or bad?

50) Have you been in love?
Ans: Hehe.. love ar.. hehe.. *blush*.. duno lei.. hehe.. =PPPPppppPP~~~

51) Where do you wish you were?
Ans: Er....

52) Do you wearing socks with your shoes?
Ans: Socks is a wearing with my shoes everytime almost i do.. =)

53) Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
Ans: Those kiddy rides counted? =/

54) Can you tango?
Ans: Nope, but i wont mind learning it if my future girl likes it =x

55) Last gift you received?
Ans: Bdae pressents from the gang. thanks all =)

56) Last sport you played?
Ans: DODGEBALL!! FREAKING FUN LAH!!!

57) Things you spend a lot of money on?
Ans: Fooooooood.

58) Where do you live?
Ans: Lol. Brunei. Lol.

59) Where were you born?
Ans: KK.

60) Last wedding attended?
Ans: My relative's wedding. Mayb my fren's one soon =D

63) Most hated food(s)?
Ans: None.. what i hate is not even edible..

64) What's your favourite?
Ans: My favourite is my favourite.

65) Can you sing?
Ans: *looks at the broken glasses*

66) Last person you instant messaged?
Ans: lol.. fuzi.. lol.. about me full-comboing 6Button MX my alias on DJMAX2.. wahahahahhahahahaha..

67) Last place you went on holiday?
Ans: Hong kong.. and that was 7yrs ago. Sigh.

68) Favorite regular drink?
Ans: Milo peng. Great energy booster for me.

69) Tag 3 friends:
Ans: Pauline,Ber,TianMing =D

70) Current Song?
Ans: Everytime by Bitchney Spears. Ok i didnt mean that. =p But i'm really listening to the song alot now.

2008-08-13T18:27:00.006+08:00

12 day no blog. hmm. i oso duno y lol. shall combine everything into 1 post.. or rather combine watever i can rem..

2nd august went to eat PORK.. who say brunei dun hav PORK! =x is juz dat we know all the ulu ulu places nia =P. i took a picture of the char siew shao rou that i ordered.. if dun tell u all i in brunei oso nobody will know, coz its realli de same as wat u would normally see for de same dish in SG too..

take a look all you non-believers!!! =x

national day.. did nth special, no event planned for us oso, so i just dota-ed wif frens in de afternoon, then 4 of us went to play BILLIARD at nite. SHIT LAHHH! if they from e start jio me go den so much more fun lerrr.. but at e same time i realized, in sg i've been playin only pool wif kel n e other guys, billiard i haven touch since pavilion -.-, which is like.. 2003??? freaking 5years!! now abit too late to start playing wif dem, coz from wat i see from the duty schedules, i only have at most 2-3 more chances to go out wif dem. haahs. oh well. but one thing is damn shiok here, u play billiard, they setup the balls for u, and they STILL hang around to setup the balls after u finish ur game. shiok. service realli 10/10 in this area.

as of today, i have just TWO more guard duties left. and all is within this week. HEHE. small thing, but dats how life shld be. always be happy even for all the small things in life. den overall your life will be happy, coz life consists of alot of small things put together. recently thinkin alot at nite when i'm lyin down comfortably in bed. about the past, about things that have happened to me, around me, about the future. its never ending, but i just like to think. who knows at some point in time i might get a crucial inspiration dats life-changing. [\drama]

but 1 sad news, the kitten at the guardroom DIED!!! :( when i go for guard duty ytd i asked the RP there wat happened. he say the silly meow go eat the rat poison. haiz. it was such a cute kitten :(. though its not like the one i wish to own (i wan white fur n blue eyes LOL), but still it was so nice the way it cuddles to me everytime i go and sit down at de table..

random stuff now, let this be a lesson, do not play with the shredding machine u have in your office! this is what it can do!!

2008-08-01T18:31:00.002+08:00

ok. its 1week ler. but actuali i havent touched this blog in 3-4days. i more or less completed watever i wanted to do in 2days.

and in case anyone's wondering, the two long blue columns there >>>> , are left there intentionally. to make the overall look less empty.. ya i could make this whole thing shift to center.. but i kinda like it the way it is nw.. =X leaves room for me to add stuff >>>> if i wan to..

work's been coming in alot.. slacking alot too.. LOL. shit me. =X playin alot oso. enjoyin the last 30-odd days i have here. hahahaha! going back to unit early has its good & bad points. oh well. at least i siam audit. heh.

[random-ness] sometimes its so hard to say even the simplest of words. [\random-ness]

2008-07-25T18:03:00.003+08:00

- Upgrading works in progress. -
- Please bear with any rubbish you see around this blog. -
- Estimated completion date : 1week from now. -
- LoL. -

2008-07-22T09:07:00.003+08:00

whaow!! i saw a rainbow during guard duty ytd!!! first time i saw while i'm here!! so nice!! coz the thing so big den all de colors so bright n obvious, and did i say its NICE?? =D.. i wanted to take picture of it lor! but duh i'm on guard duty, camera hp already not allowed in camp, dun say guard room. lol. sad luh!

i found a new blog skin ler. shld b doing it up one of these days, when i'm not on duty and got de spare time lol. coz on the other hand i oso nd to start preparing my handing over stuffs. hee hee. all of a sudden i'm considered EOT personnel. ( EOT = end of tour )

2008-07-20T12:48:00.002+08:00

whas, ok erm. a little update. i'm coming back on 31august le. dats so far 90% confirmed. unless pple wan to play around and come out pattern with my understudy dates etc etc.

kinda tired repeating the full details again n again so i just put it simply..
-nov got stocktake audit
-my original date of leaving is oct
-officer asked if i wan to do stocktake audit on nov
-my fren rem i long time ago say dowan so he tell officer for me
-so officer ask my clerk fren to see if it can be arranged for understudy to come 1mth earlier
-meaning from 24sep,become 24aug
-indirectly meaning he wan me leave earlier if idowan do stocktake
-like wth? but dun care, he wan lidat den lidat lor

so basically dats wats happened. haaahs. i'll say more details if i get to tok to u all in msn or smth.

back to wat happened today, ATE TIM SUM dis morning! heehee. after guard duty me n another guy go bath den went out liao. rofl. burps. i not eatin de camp lunch. still full. HAHA. burps. later dota. burps. yum. burps. hee.

2008-07-18T01:45:00.001+08:00

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2008-07-17T15:09:00.003+08:00

i think i bo chup cut hair, go back to brunei den cut, its lower standard, but way cheaper.. here i cut $10.. go back there cut $4.. lol.

thx everyone for the wishes =D. thanks for de presents =). gave me somethin happy to bring back there, but i know a fuckload of work is waiting for me. =((((

de posb card dat i received last week apparently is ATM card nia. no wonder there wasnt any acknowledgement slip. no wonder there wasnt any 16digit thingy. and its blue color not orange color.... . . . . . TODAY den the debit card come. so tmd i needa go activate it. weird thing was i never asked for a replacement atm card leh. boo.

haiz. freaking moody. but to a certain extent its better den in dec. mehhh..

2008-07-16T23:33:00.002+08:00

simple blog while i'm at lan shop. yes lan again. zzz. i waste alot $ on here but haiz. wat to do, no internet. this shld b de last time i'm coming here. coz flyin back to brunei in 2 days. den when i'm back permanently, on my priority list of things to do is subscribe to internet lol.

i'm happy, coz juz had sakae buffet wif jas,nette,henry,aggie,ming,ber.. din take pic of the food, but i took pic of the tiny cake. lols. its nice la nette. y u dun believe me -.-". and though not chocolate but got alot hersheys kisses waddd. (though real kisses might be good too! LOL). and got Godiva chocolate oso! woots. bio this chocolate for years le, finally get to eat. thankssss!. thanks aggie for de wallet too =). and dun worry abt de thingy u told me abt, things r different nw. so i have no reason to say anything.

but i'm oso sad!! coz of this this n that that n etc etc.. boo. lol.

ok end of simple bloggin here. gonna dota soon.

2008-07-16T02:22:00.003+08:00

nth to do, so come online again after playing abit of Hellgate:London.. i realize no one talks abt this game.. am i the only person playing it? or izit a lousy game (which i might understand if its so)

oh yahs, another reason y i haven post pics is oso coz nd time to upload all these, i cant online long for nw, limited data usage =X.

and! after seeing jun's blog i realize... i took almost de same pic O.o".. first i take the carrier, then i take the box O.o".. LOL.. bo bian mahs, like wat she said, its cute lor =p. eh dis is de first few pics i took wif this hp ok! =X tml most prob got more pics, nette say she wan to use my hp to cam wh0re. rofl.

ok lahs. cant blame me, last time cannot lidat ma. =p

2008-07-15T23:11:00.003+08:00

juz back from dinner @ swensens. miss swensens sia lol. its not pork but still miss de food there. its with pauline,lod,jun,sue. sue noes its my bdae soon! abit shocked, but i can guess is jun tell de. haaahs. who else =x.

sorry, mei you pictures. i'm not used to cam-whoring! my 2nd camera phone lols! but 1st one i dun hav data cable all these! so technically this is my 1st one wif the full stuff (data cable etc etc). mayb nx time den i slowly spam pic hahaaa.

thanks alot Jun for the pressie! i reali surprised when u pass it to me b4 we alight. totally din expect lols. duno if u share wif sue de or wat but still, thank you!! ^^

2008-07-15T01:07:00.002+08:00

lols. evening went to meet my friend's gf, help him take smth from her to bring back to brunei. she say is 2 small bag but is heavy!! i nvr see wats inside, but nvm, i not gonna carry it. of course is put in check-in luggage. roar!

later on fuzi sms wo jio me go bugis, woot, life-saver! even though i quit arcade le, but nvm la! juz meet frens oso nice ma! usual playing djmax wif alex n kel, fuzi oso bian tai, break some of de scores on MY psp! but at nite i go home i practice til i break back! LOL. really is cannot ci ji me n kel, she break ours by abit, den we break back hers by alot (dats when we reali concentrate)

other den dat. monday juz passed lidat...

2008-07-13T17:56:00.001+08:00

woah. juz woke up lols. oh ya i usin my hp as a modem so i can online awhile. hahaha. i scared to stay online too long though. duno hw the charges work. if its normal gprs charges den it shld b nth much.

ytd slept thru e whole afternn. woke up arn 6+pm coz i last min realize can ask pauline go swensen again. suay suay she busy. so sua. anyway i think my craving die liao. she say tues meetin lod though, so tues it is.

ma bought fish n chips for me oso. haha. so dinner was still western. left house aroun 8+, took 12 to bugis as usual. and thx to the fuckin bus keep shaking. i broke my 150k+++ combo in djmax ZZZ. if none of this shit keep happening to me i long time ago get 999k liao. few days ago 220k++.. off psp.. den psp hang, it did a reset.. KNN?!?!?!... first time in my whole psp life i see such thing happen. cb.

anyway, played lan from 9pm all de way to morning 7am. audi til around midnite lidat wif pauline. den dota wif mei n another guy (de guy from delp, so he still tinks i'm a girl =x, lol fun). 1st night ever since i touchdown, i had a GOOOOOOOOD dota session. something which i missed in those 7mths in brunei, too bad i couldnt save all de replays =/. btw we oli lost 1 game, out of 4 or 5 =x.

today, i tink they cant dota, got sch tml. but for me i still sian leh! no plan! again feel like goin lan! ARGH! but 2nite if dota will b wif random pple, not friends. wonder if i shld login back maple n see see here see see there. anyway i hav afew more hours to think whether i wan go.

2008-07-12T01:51:00.002+08:00

slept til 12+pm lol.. supposed to go vivo at 2pm find kel at starhub but abit delay here n there since alot time. so i reach ther 3pm.. den see see hp..

was initially thinkin of Nokia N95.. i confused it wif N96 (which is not out yet i think).. so abit chua tio when kel tell me its a old phone. i walk here walk there.. Samsung F480 caught my eye alot of times.. but nva reali see more, den i ask kel about it, he say not bad, new phone, 5mp cam oso, juz dat video playback not as gd as nokia. but i like lehs. den fated oso ma. within budget n everything.

BUT! jun oso wan de phone =( she keep askin me dun buy. lols i rem she last time sms me got 3 models she like, nokia N96, samsung f480 n 490. haha. bu shi purposely de luh!! =/

dun care. i still buy. =p. dinner went eat sushi buffet wif ming, denise n her bf, marvin (not mervin, lol). expensive but nice lols. 4 pple $189 LOL. nx watched movie, diablo3. oops no is hellboy. xD. oli diablo fans shld get my joke. ming teach me der. he say hellboy is actuali diablo3. juz shave off the horns from his head n back nia. den he hold pistol instead of breathin fire. and ming was pointing to Liz in the poster, saying to put a caption on top of her saying "i like red dicks" . WTH!?!?! total randomness from him. LAME. den the movie Liz reali got pregnant. WTH!! ming tell me "I TOLD U SHE LIKE RED DICKS" . ROFLLLL.

later duno goin ber hse anot. actuali is i haven remind her yet. hehe. been playing around wif the PC suite so cant use de phone sms yet. hee.

2008-07-10T21:01:00.001+08:00

whaa. uber sian day ytd. whole day ber din even msg me, wonderin if she even got see my sms ytd before dinner anot. still tot supposed to go out, den end up nvr. 2nd plan was go bugis wif alex n kel n fuzi, but alex say he not going. so i dowan to be lightbulb wif the other 2, i mai meet them ler.

i sian til i ownself go lan. 7+ start playing. 7+ stop playing. dats PM to AM. =x. morning felt so cold, den i left the lan shop n realize, raining! 1st time i see bugis morning rain. then again i not in bugis in the morning very often oso. =/. but somehw in my memory i go bugis so many times always didnt rain. nvm.

surprising thing was, i took mrt back home, den from tamp interchange walk home. i still felt very awake lohs. WEIRD. but after i took a bath i lie down awhile den ko le. haha.

later duno if pauline available for dinner anot. craving for swensens suddenly. and i wanna watch hellboy2 !

T_T my timing is so bad sometimes. haizzzzzzzzzzzzz.

update: pauline wasnt free. busy with work. sigh. sad til alone play CS at home. and TD. and dota AI. no internet is boring like fuck laaaaa! lkasjdlakjdlkasflkheljkhfgsljkf

2008-07-08T17:09:00.000+08:00

2dae is rest day. lol. spent the afternn typin stuffs. den actuali wanted bring my lappy go ber hse ton overnite, but she says she didnt slp de prev nite -____-", den 2nite lesson til 6pm go home sure coma. i smsed her arn 4+ ask if wan meet for dinner, den after dat i go her hse lor, easier. but no reply -______________________-" so i kinda stayed home all day, which was good oso. slept from 6+ til 12midnite lol.

ate my super late dinner, which is supper =x. and father talked to me. even asked me a qn which shocked me: wat happened between me n her. *anyway i'm blank at this point* coz i think there's too much in my mind nw i cant type here.mostly abt my family. mostly is things which are not nice to hear oso so i think i'd juz keep it to myself. i might b enjoyin myself, but tings at home are gettin worse n worse. i doubt i can find anyone i can talk to comfortably. i dun even noe if i can try to go for wat i wished to go for as far as my heart is concerned.

oh well. i tink i gona try to get more rest. nd go bank in da morning. and... ah fuck. think i juz go release til i'm tired n slp again.

2008-07-07T17:09:00.000+08:00

lol. i went home earli last nite, but played game til 3am. hehe. den slp til before noon. ate lunch at home.den went tamp central settle some stuffs. went posb apply debit card, and at same time withdraw some $. & update bankbook. coz my atm card spoiled. and only after i exit the bank den i remember. I FORGOT XFER $ to aggie n nette de acct. @#$%@$%@$%^#^. nvm another day go queue again =(. morning shld hav lesser queue i hope.i dowan go in afternoon liao.

oh yah. after de update. i see my bankbook. i happy. hehehehhehehehe. hehe. hehe. hee. xD xD xD.

after dat went M1 check out the mobile internet thing. wah rao eh. wrong luh. the plan still got contract. is the rental of the modem device dat has no contract n no subscription fees. boo. so happy for nth.

went home after everything. arn 4+. den fuzi sms me ask me wan go bugis anot, of course! hahaha. just when i tot i no plan for the day. XD. they say reach arn 8+. so it was all good! got alot of time for me to slowly prep n take bus down. i reach 830 lidat they stil haven reach lol. but wait awhile oli, not like on saturday. F3.

2dae oli fuzi, kel, alex. but more den enuff jokes to go around. coz of alex. same old thing like wad we use to joke about with DM, now is just different game nia. hahaha. he's saying me n kel is crazy pple. live in castlevania one. HAHAHA. yao guai. all play DJmax like no kick. den i tell him, HE is the yao guai lor! he dont own a psp! yet he can still challenge us and play 6button and get 9x% accuracy and oli afew miss! WTH! if he own a psp sure crazier! he become count dracula le. king of castlevania. hahah.

we purposely go youji again, coz alex tokin on de phone nva hear us discuss. den we go sit down den he say loud loud "WAH SURE ANOT YOUJI AGAIN!" hahahahaha. all order kweh chap again. yum yum xD. after dat went to er.. forgot the shop name.. toast smth or breat toast or wad.. sell bread de, but they prepare it wif diff style. slack awhile den all go home le, and me go lan shop. ton overnite. msn abit, den play dota wif mei, 2 games both lost lol. nvm weekend playin again, hope can play more =)

nah jun! all my posts up le! no pictures in my blog nia. =x nvm i got $300 voucher from starhub. shld b changing phone this friday! coz my friend, kel, working in starhub at vivocity. hehe.

2008-07-06T17:09:00.000+08:00

mmm. today no plan! jun say she goin out wif poly fren. boo. so i went to ask pauline if she free to go out today, she say ok. heh. so go out!

earli morning 9+ wake up le. (correct muh, reach home arn 2+, bath sleep. den about 7hr of sleep again. haha). i got no internet at home haiz. so play dota wif who? AI. pathetic. juz pass time awhile. den prep n go vivo lers.

vivo changed too. or mayb is i too long nva come, and cant reali remember everything in vivo yet. zach is there too. walk arn n at de same time listen to his craps. ahha. pauline say he very talkative, but ok lah. got such pple den wun bored. =P.

zach buy his thing le, den was deciding wat to do nx. we went to park lane. play lan lol. sad again. duno y pauline de comp cannot join de dota game den i or zach create. and vice versa. end up all play own thing. i play one game nia. 84min. O.o" but win in de end. at least its more fun den in camp. got PROPER teamates who know hw to play. hahaha. yea my camp mates are noobs, no doubt. but i'm sure they're learning.

next, movie time! at cathay cineplex. (this is hw i find out movie ticket increase again -.-) zach went home so is juz me n pauline. watched Hancock. (pls see jun's blog for movie review. LOL!) funny movie. will smith is just great =D nva let me down as usual.

after movie, didnt wanna go home yet, went to TCC for.. wat else? tok cock cafe mah.. =p. she tells me got some mobile internet thingy, monthly subscription oso, and got 1mpbs,2mpbs etc. o.0 but too late to check it out.

wanted to go lan shop after that, but was thinkin, aiya nvm, go home bahs. kinda tired hee.

2008-07-05T23:08:00.000+08:00

(continued..) lol machiam one big freaking long post. coz its one thing after another.

ok woke up 11+am. went home. ber told me take 39 from yishun inter, but as i was reachin yishun inter, i rem.. eh hw can i 4get, i everytime go back from camp is from here. so i alighted one stop earlier and walked to the 969 busstop. took 969 back to tamp inter. den walk home. haha. doesnt mean i earn so much $ overseas means i wont save on the little bus fare still =). anyway nw bus fare oso wtf lohs. cash is 90cents for feeder service?!?! WAD DA FACK!?!?! realli makes me feel fuckin pissed dat everything's going up and low income families are just sufferin more n more. so wad, big fuck u give those measly $200 deposits. knn. eat one meal already GST 7%, service tax $10.
movie ticket oso hit the double digit liao. omfg luhs. =(

ok sorry, got abit off topic. and angry abit =/. and that info is wat i found out on the 6th, not today the 5th. =X (btw i'm typing all this posts backdated abit)

went home, took a bath, and i didnt sleep more lol. from 4am to 11am oredi 7hrs. GUUD enuff! haha. suppose to meet kel and de whole gang around evening. so i left n reach bugis ard 5+. end up all oso haven reach. i kinda irritated lors. ask fuzi arrange for me, call everybody out den nvr say time. knn. den i say 5+, i call her she JUST WOKE UP not long ago. knnb. nvm. anyway wun hav much things to do i suppose.

lol as usual, when alex and everyone reached. tok alot cock, except this time mostly about me, and mostly about PORK. LOL. they're telling me alex dun like to go to youji to eat. but i wan to go there eat kweh chap. alex cant say anything, coz i'm boss dat day! hahahaha. PORKKKK!

even funnier shit is, at de arcade fuzi was letting me play kel's psp, coz DJmax 1's songs are crazier den DJmax 2. alex reached when i was playing Outlaw MX mode. as usual, his comment is i bian tai. my speed 1.5 nia hahah. yet i 1st time play i can see de notes le. died in the end but still is "wtf" to him. rofl. even at dinner, all eat finish then there challening each other.

later on, went to pool JUNCTION arn 11pm. i caps is coz alex said pool FUNCTION. LOL!! he say is combination of pool FUSION n pool JUNCTION. ROFL LUH! LAME! we all go so many time to both places oso nva think of it that way sia hahaaha. and next, even at pool, while 2 pple playing pool, the rest sittin on de sofa and STILL DJmax-ing. LOL! fun, coz in camp the guys there dowan to play wif me de =(. dey say i too bian tai, but is more like they dowan to chalk up loses to me nia. =x

that ck, reach near midnite lors. met his gf oso. haha. and OH YA. nich oso got gf. wah rao eh. den + kel n fuzi. wah rao eh x2. feel so bright. nich got tell his gf abt my DDR. i'm like. wah rao eh x3. dats YEARRRRRRRRRRRRRSSSSSSSSS ago can! =x. nw is not legend liao. is ancient. soon ancestor. lols.

played til about 1+, den went to eat. MORE PORK for me! i order pork ribs i think. or pork smth smth, wadever. pork jiu dui liao. lol. terry say wan bring me go ktv. O.o" i wanted to go, but wasnt thinkin of terry. hahhs.

2008-07-04T23:02:00.001+08:00

wahaha. i'm back in SG! reali cannot describe hw happy i am, even though its juz for 2 weeks. but its more of missing this whole island. even as the plane was decending onto the airway, juz seeing the familiar sight of C.A makes me smile to myself ler. de guy beside me muz b wonderin y de hell i keep lookin out the window (btw he's the one wif the window seat, i'm beside =/ ). HAPPY WAD!! cannot ar! =x

abit swakoo though. de last time i was arriving in SG from somewhere else was after my Os. when my parents brought me to HK. even then i was like, 17? cant rem anything about DFS and other misc procedures. reason y i said that was, those other country de citizens nd to fill in a form abt where they from, where they going to stay in SG, blah blah. at first i didnt take e form when on the plane. but at the immigration counter i tot, eh better fill in juz in case. den i queue up. wait for awhile, going to my turn liao, den one staff came to me and see me holding red passport, den tell me

"Sir, you're singaporean?"
"Yah.."
"oh you dont nd to fill in this form, and u can que over the other counter for singaporeans"
"*looks over and sees nobody in de queue* -____-".. ok thanks"

lol. nehmind! i learn smth new. LOL. mountain tortoise is me. =X

jasline msn me in de morning. apparently nette told her abt me lol. den when i touchdown, jun first one to sms me say welcome back lol. followed by pauline.den my mei. denise oso smsed me but i didnt find out til 3days later, coz i nva receive =/. at de counter ming n drew called me oso. hahaha. but i super surprised lor. I DIN NOE THEY CAME TO FETCH ME TOO! omgggg! thanks so much guys =) ber end up cannot make it =/ so i tot oli nette hha. i didnt seem to be very slow, but yet when i go to my belt left like oli afew luggages. wtf? i one of the last to reach haha. anyways. went T3 to eat. juz munch munch abit nia n tok cock. den drew didnt wanna go out after dat so we took taxi n sent him home first.

reach home nearly get heart attk!! father went out!! he say mama at home but i call no answer!! i ring door bell 3-4 times no answer!! i nva bring my key to overseas de mah -.-" end up mama juz went in toilet to bath dats y. lol. phew.

unpack abit n tok to ma awhile, den went out wif ming n nette to tamp central. this nette luh. she tot i go home den stay home liao, den she so fast call her sis tell her to meet. zzzzz. ok luh normally if come back from other country will hav jet lag, but brunei since same time zone so nvm. i can go out immediately. cant blame her. so me n ming juz walked around TM. den go see hokkaido fair. i bought ice cream from there for $5. LOL!! abit siao nw i think back. but nvm. mervin called me! say y i nva tell him i come back. i was -.-" haha. den i ask him when can MJ. LOL!!

later went to bugis to wait for ber. played abit of IIDX. ok my skill still there. but my skill wasnt high to begin with. LOL. i cant even do manual scratching. and, WHY my GF memory reset?!?!?! i insert card they ask me key in name again. awwww. nvm. doesnt matter. i doubt i'm playing much arcade ever. lol. our generation time to move on liao. was sayin that wif kel n alex oso. hahs.

i duno y, but i felt full since the airport meal. wth! so ber wanted to eat pastamania. we pei her. after dat ming had something on around 10, so i and ber went home. on de way den she tell me her hse no warcraft. DUH! den nvm. wanted to dl maple private svr for her. but for some reason its down (which at that day i didnt know, after that den i found out, Odin source got sued. Odin source is the maple private svr client or smth). so juz surf net n watch show til 3+ 4am lidat. den slp til 11+am the next day.. (to be continued ) =x

2008-07-02T10:46:00.002+08:00

ookays.. here it is..

Flight no: SQ181
Terminal 2
12.20pm
ETA SG: 2.20 (but i'd say is around 2.45 lidat, counting the miscellaneous preparations)

2008-06-30T09:51:00.003+08:00

okays, actuali my air ticket already at the admin office wif the clerks ler. but i lazy collect, coz today OFF luh! ahahah. tml den collect, den i'll post details of my flight number here =). btw do they say which terminal i'm landing on the ticket? if not i hav to go online check. boo.

omg. so excited. hehe. cant help thinkin abt it. haha. but i better focus on my work first. if not go home leave oso cannot go in peace. =/ and i nd hand over the secretary job to another guy lols. coz next meeting i wun b around.

ytd sms-ed abit wif chee keen. during my prowling sommore. rufl. typical shit of couples, his girl smsing me using his hp, stuff like that. played along awhile, but told him i'm still sensitive towards certain topics. den bo reply liao. WTH. i'm gonna trash him in pool this saturday. RAWR.

2008-06-28T17:09:00.002+08:00

woots. i got 2.9gb of techno from a fren in another camp. Song ARRRRR!!! alot of old songs which brought back tons of memories. from memories of my post 'O' lvl days, gd n bad memories of my 1st gf (lol?), memories of OZ days, irc-ing til late, streaming my techno for pple to listen over IRC oso, memories of those ton nites at chalets or anywhere at all n blast techno.

suddenly just felt very nostalgic. hahhhhsss.. but all these were good memories, and it just feels gd to think back on those days once in awhile n realize that my life has it fair share of fun.

back to the present, i'm praying hard i can settle all (or at least enough) of my outstanding issues before i go home leave. my RQ is helping me, but sometimes his words are so straight n blunt, i listen oso feel discouraged. but i muz tell myself to perservere!! why?? COZ ITS THREE MORE WORK DAYS GOD DAMMITTTT!!! oh ya, why three? coz i'm off this monday. HEE. and 1st july got cohesion outing, but they put me duty STOREMAN on that day. fucked up lor. not fair lor. the other 2 malays fucking show no interest in that outing, den dun put them duty. knnbccb, pui. nehmind. i take the chance to do abit of paperwork here n there.

which reminds me, my thumbdrive missing! SHIT! all my impt data there and i nva back up!! SHIT!! i hope i left it in office or smth. i cant rem. SHIT! *makes mental note to myself to back up once i get it back. scary luh!*

i suppose i will only start packing on wed and thurs nite. 2 nights shld be more den enuff, coz all my stuffs is in a small bunk anyways.

and my buddy silly luh! she most prob wrote down on the wrong date, or remember wrong or smth, coz she went to airport ytd! instead of next fri. abit diaos oso. feel so bad =/ coz imagine go down all de way there, waste her $ n time. -.-"

i got nth to do now, coz some guys went jogging, den the rest seem to be going out later. =/ no dota kaki. STONEEEE!!! mayb i shall take this chance to think thru wat i nd to do for the next few days.

2008-06-23T18:34:00.002+08:00

Hrmph. saw this paragraph. found it very true. (and i'm guilty of it too)

Our world rates wealth over courage and comfort over commitment. We think that nothing will ever disturb our lives. We are surprised when people get sick and die. We think that technology can fix everything. We take our safety for granted. We have more degrees but less sense. We have more medicine but less wellness. We've added years to life, not life to years. We build everything bigger, but not neccessarily better. We have more convenience but less time. We have more communication but less understanding. We make heroes out of actors but have no idea who the real heroes are.

i read this and it was like, "holy shit". dats so fucking true =/

annndddd, back to the main topic on my mind nowadays, my home leave XD.

no one replies my qn, coz i noe no one reads my blog. even my buddy din noe i posted details here. HAHS. funny me. xD.

just kinda worried about hw i'm gonna spend my time. yea yea, i know i'm gonna get scolded "wth you're coming back to SG, 2weeks holiday, and you're WORRIED?!?! WTF?!? ", but dats me wadddd... =( .. no la, i'm worried i'd hav trouble gathering the pple i wanna gather. and eventually it would determine whether i spend my 2 weeks outside or at home. (which,unfortunately,home is not 1st choice,coz NO INTERNET!!). but not to say that i dont miss my bed,my room, my com, my PARENTS! =( i'll be spending my actuali birthday at home fyi to u guys =). also because 18th noon flying back. ROFL. but its not a spoiler =)

shit, i know there's more i wanna say, but forgot again. ROARS.

2008-06-19T10:42:00.003+08:00

[Date Confirmed: 4th July]
[Airline confirmed: SQ]
[Time of me leaving camp: 10.50am]
[Time of departure: 12.50pm]
[ETA SG: 2.50pm]

xD xD xD

*cough cough*. 2.50pm. anyone not working or schooling or watever? *wink wink*

2008-06-15T22:20:00.002+08:00

ok, i didnt mention, my flight's gonna be SQ(phew), not BIA (double phew), coz BIA sucks to the core, from their counter service, to in-flight experience. fugggglyyyy fuggged up... reason y i said that is simple, i've received plenty of feedback abt BIA. counter staff being rude, flight being delayed (more den one occasion), lousy service on-board. wat more can i say?? BIA IS VACUUM!!! (i.e sucks,lol)

been racking my brains on songs to dl, there's so many nice songs i heard on radio last time which i never got to dl, coz i was so scared of receiving that deadly letter to pay a fine, and all that piracy shit. here in brunei i'd wanna take the chance to dl everything and anything i can. BUT I CANT REM SOng TITLES ARGH. i'd ask pple for help but cannot! coz how can any other person know wat songs i thinkin of lol.

there's this song i heard b4 (mayb i left it in my desktop n nvr copy over to my lappy, but i confirm rem hearing this song on my own playlist somewhere somehow). lyrics goes SOMETHING like this (save afew words here n there i cant rem, the * would mean there's some word there, i think)

hey
why'd you look so sad,
* * *, come to me now
dont,
be ashamed to cry,
let me see u through,
coz i've seen a dark side too

ok i might be wrong wif the lyrics, but if anyone knows the song pls tell me de title hahas.

fri went to eat at some ala carte western restaurant near our camp. 3 pple $80. LOL. exp!. but nice!. den saturday went to eat pizza n pasta buffet. OMG. NICE oso! wahahha. fei si wo. but nvm. i burn fast. awhile back to usual le. =X

today duty, so cant go out. spent the afternoon dotaing, den evening onwards maple again. priv svr of course. but hopping around. coz ironically, those SG ones all buay gan. end up i hav to play a svr which is far, like US,europe that area. yea its laggy abit. but i'm settling down there lol. got guild n stuff le. i suppose i'll use that to pass the time if there's nth to do.

i oli realize late last nite dat jun jun msg me telling me she moving on to kl for diving. HAHAs. anyways. 2nite shld b coming back le o.O.

--- still heavily heavily thinkin of wat i wanna do when i come back. as expected, i'm freakin stone. blank. so many things to do, yet i cant decide wat i wanna do. wth is this. i noe i wanna gather ber n ming n the other guys out. i noe i wanna gather wif kel n the DM gang too. hmm. and probably go clubbing (if denise remembers to jio me along). gonna make the most out of it. but hav to hope the fates are kind, that all my fren's schedules are not that tight. =.= ---

2008-06-14T09:11:00.002+08:00

hees. just feel like luffing n happy for no reason. ok mayb there is a reason. counting down to home leave LO!! home leave 2week BA! den come back for another 3mths den EOT ba! den go back sg another 2mth den ORD LO! . ok the last 3 parts was rubbish. counting down to home leave is de one making me happy. at least among all the fucked-up stuff here. sigh.

and guys, PREPARE panadol for me can?!?! coz SG air is confirmed DIRTY!! BLUHHHHHH... every single one of us who has went back for indulgence leave, or home leave, or watever reasons.. step into sg.. SICK..

and i found out, my flight's gonna be in the afternoon. LOL!!! hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...

2008-06-04T18:28:00.002+08:00

ROFL. Started back maple on sunday. den monday was off-in-lieu so i monday oso play in de morning. now lvl 9x ler. LOL!. ok la. abit obvious. i playing private svr lol. actuali is just testing see whether can connect anot. but confirm can. coz nvr go thru gameguard. and normally the host is someone's pc somewhere in this world. this svr i playing wif trix, but she says the drop rate not so gd, coz she cannot find her kandayo. LOL? but true la. mayb the drop rate is like 3x or 4x, it'll b better if its around 8-10% =x. EXP IS CRAZY CAN!! now her fren de svr down coz he's overseas, cant wait for her fren de svr, den most prob i permanently settle down there if his svr stats gd.

this morning i had a chance to visit the new stealth frigate for our navy, i almost couldnt make it coz my whole branch was involved in cargo stuff. end up since i sounded out i had an interest, so my superior recommended i go, so-called 'represent' my brance, if not lao kui -.-" BUT I'M HAPPY! nvr would i hav tot i could hav de chance to visit our own navy vessal while i'm on overseas posting. and its reali true lohs. on board the food alot nicer! all de chefs are regulars oso lol.

haiz. but i'm still not happy abt smth since last nite. jun jun didnt seem to be herself 0.o". i duno if its reali gastric or wat. but be strong k? it'll be over soon de. try not to anyhw scold pple , coz they're innocent ><. u wan can scold me, i let u fa xie if u nd to haha. take good good care of urself hao ma? i noe u'll b reading this, someday.

2008-06-01T11:15:00.002+08:00

aight, normal days since thurs, except for ytd lol.

went out super early, at 9am. coz crist jio me join them go out, celebrating his bdae. they rented two cars sommore, ruffles.

initially planned to go to The Empire, the 6-star hotel in brunei, to hav buffet bfast, but i think they nva do homework, we reach there, found out they oli open at 11am, and NO BUFFET sommore -.- is ala carte -.-""""". so went to another restaurant for tim sum. haha. not bad tim sum, havent ate this for years.

after which was abit of null time, so went to play pool awhile, ( or rather, i WATCH them play, they knew i got play but i diamdiam, they kinda forgot oso so they din ask me to play, until the end when one of them ask here got number ball anot.. den i say nx time play num ball jio me, then all start shooting me liao -.- say i silent killer. LOL!! but realy ma!! i not the kind to go around advertising myself =/ )

nx was to catch a movie, the chronicles of narnia: price caspian.. or can say chronicles of narnia II oso.. lucky no link to the 1st one.. coz i didnt watch the first one.. all i knew was those 4 kids were kings n queens of old.. blah blah blah.. which was enuff =p

not a bad movie at all.. nx was dinner at another restaurant, then at nite most fun le!! play go kart!!! HAHAHHA!! but was kinda late, so we oli had time to play one game, in my game i was first!! LOL!! coz heng ma. my fren in front of me was first to go in, but he dowan to take the fastest car. so i huat lors. =X hehehehe. fun!!! =PPPPP

2008-05-29T08:39:00.002+08:00

just back from guard duty. had quite abit of sleep last nite so turns out i dont realli nd this whole morning to rest, so come use internet peacefully oso. its here in brunei den i realize i'm a sucker for peace n calmness. xD. or mayb to be exact, it feels really really soothing to hav some peace n quiet after a period of hectic life. when i'm back in sg i'm gonna make it a point to go to de beach once in awhile and see stars at nite, while just letting my mind be at ease with the crashing of the waves. the nice sea breeze. omg, heaven =D

finally someone actually replied me on holiday suggestions. aggie u told me hk n taiwan, coz u went there b4 RIGHT!! mayb dats y no one dare suggest, coz if it were me i oso wun dare to suggest places which i haven been to b4. but still, thx =D. i'm also considering those 2 places, since most i know like those places, and budget is still quite ok for taiwan or hk. i definitely nd more frens!! **and hope someone is gd in chinese, coz i suck!! LOL**. oh yahs. if my flight is midnite, means i reach sg 2am+++ leh. u still willing to fetch ma?? hahahaha. be honest =P.

but i 4got to say, my taxi fare can be claimed. so no worries =x.

2008-05-27T19:38:00.002+08:00

alright. smth which i tot i updated here le but haven. coz i sms-ed afew pple n email afew others dats y i kena blur :x

MY HOME LEAVE KENA PUSH FORWARD!!!! ROARRRRR... ok it sounds like bad news at first, coz the reason why i chose 16th to 29th of july is because.. 15th and 30th is public holiday in brunei!!! my 14days of leave fit gam gam ho inside.. den can celebrate bdae wif all oso.

BUT! after thinkin thru abit. nvm oso lars. now become 4th to 18th july. SAmE SAME. i come back 18th, den 19th n 20th is weekend. rofls. still can celebrate bdae oso, just that the actual day would be a littttttlllleeeee more sian, coz flying back on the nx day. hahs.

flight surely is at nite de.. can be anytime from 8pm to midnite sia.. =( both to and fro de same..

Anyone willing to fetch me from airport??????? :x

2008-05-25T22:17:00.002+08:00

wahs. i just kpoh one of my old frens den frenster profile. she went to japan sia!!! ROARRR!!! but i know she able to afford. and her bf oso around. he oso looks like can afford. sighs. i can oso afford after my brunei tour, but i'm the only one who can afford, and if i do go japan, i cant do anything after that le =x

so i've arrived at the conclusion. i dowan go japan. =X. neither do i wanna go korea. coz there is the most exp tourist location.

havent talked to ber for awhile lehs. duno whr she poof to again.

i shall ask again: anyone got nice places to recommend for holiday? dun tell me sentosa rOarRR.

2008-05-25T20:34:00.002+08:00

my mind not realli wandering around thoughts of singapore to be honest.. dunno y leh. mayb coz not really that near yet. ya its 1mth 3weeks more oli.. but.. hmm. i reali duno y leh. i'm reali excited. yet. stone oso. lol. mayb is coz i'm reali tired. or mayb i nd to be on the plane den i realli happy. just like the other way round. when i first came. on the plane den everything start coming.

some words i heard, not realli from any particular person, but in general.. making me think of life.. thinkin wif regards to moving on in life.. somehw i feel different from wat i felt and told myself 2-3mths ago.. perhaps its behind me now or perhaps i numb to all these le.. like my mei lidat. numb til cannot numb anymore.

recently everyday oso dota. lol. camp is boring!! cannot go out gai gai everyday! so if u say my blog is boring i wun mind. i kinda agree. ruffles. nvm! when i come back i huat liao!

trix pulling me in to play maple private svr. i knew long time ago got such things le. even wanted to try it out last time. but end up nvr. lol den now resurface again. i told her it makes me luff. coz in the gaming world of legit players, privates svrs are often seen as unwelcome to us, coz well like i said, we're legit. and private svrs have boosted exp, gold, wateva yadda yadda. and ironically, now all of us are going in, even duckieFC gm oso. *4got his nick* HAHA.

random thought. PURPLE MONKEYS~~~~~ =x

-the end-

2008-05-18T12:33:00.003+08:00

AH! now i finally rem wat i kept forgetting. LOLS. it was smth that i read in the papers.

pangyaSEA closing down! not that i'm happy abt it. but i'm shocked to read it. then again. i not surprised oso. the amt of players inside getting lesser n lesser. machiam kong kong liao. but this time the issue raised even made a topic in the papers. i think i read it in Life! or straights times. 4got which.

read abt the earthquake in [insert country here]. ps 4got where it happened. but so massive. so many pple injured n killed. haiz. and not only that. the past few weeks read about alot of accidents. sg oso got. the minibus thing which made one kid die. and another lady after her dragon boat training or smth, kena bang by car.. oso in sg.. i see the picure of her husband dat broke down n nearly suicide on the spot, feel so heart pain.. sigh.. god bless all these pple.. may they be happy in their next place, and for those still around, hope they will be strong n carry on with life..

2008-05-15T19:24:00.000+08:00

aiyos. my fren today broke his ankle. he oso la. gey kiang. kena twice b4 le. sprain den numb. den still dowan take care. now bone realli broken. he just got back from the local hospital here. i think nw we all wont let him play game or run liao lols. sort of make me wish it was me lohs. den so much easier to solve my problems. but i guess now no one noes y i lidat say le.

anyway. hope he recovers quickly. God bless him.

gonna send back some $ to my parents this mth. one guy staying near tamp safra there. he going back on leave end of this mth. gonna ask him to help pass the cash to my parents. coz my bank card spoil oso. and i dun hav internet banking. so since i hav all these excess cash wif me on hand, might as well send back. instead of waiting til july. nvr noe wat might happen and mama or papa nds cash.

AIYAAAA. again i wan to say smth but 4get wat ler. @$%^#$%^LTKSDFLGKSLDFKGRYTGEdrgsklje4lkjtlkasdasdasdasdasdasdasd!!!!11!!11oneoneone!!!111 *thinking thinking*

2008-05-11T09:14:00.002+08:00

aiyos. everytime i come here i got feeling i forgot wat i wanna say. den after i offline le den i rem. den nx time i come here again same feeling. wths. =(

oh well. we DID dota til 4am hahaha. but not a gd night lors. all sleepy. den de guy sleepy sleepy still go same lane as me. make me lose so much exp and $ to AI. coz he juz anyhw whack. wah rao. i was BH sommore. if let me solo mayb that game still can win.

AH i think i rem wat i wanna say le. after the lan shop visit, i've decided i might drop by more often if i can ler. coz in camp play bnet dota verrryyy laggy. gonna try in lan shop see how. and if possible i'm gonna jio my meimei play ler. weee. a break from all the noobs in camp. i'm straightforward. they ARE noobs. but i'm trying my very best to train n teach them, they're improving, but i suppose there's still a limit. coz i found out their main problem, same as mine way back last time. LJ GRAPHIC CARD. LOL!! their screen movement is not smooth at all. sigh.

the countdown has begun!!! hehehes. 65days 14hrs 35min and 35secs as of this moment i'm typing. HAHAH!!! NOT ANYHOW HOR!! i got a countdown timer LOL! the skin is kenny from southpark de. haha. cute and super nice to use XD. oh yahs. is countdown to my home leave. not EOT (end of tour). always gd to look forward to nearer events. time seems to pass faster. cant wait to go back! so sexcited!! oops. i mean excited. XD.

2008-05-09T21:18:00.002+08:00

bleahs. update update.

this week final week of "freedom". coz nx week super busy. mostly coz of my cargoes coming in from SG and other camp stuffs.

now at lan shop. my 1st time here! my fren bring me here de. coz we juz eat finish claypot rice. den nth to do for the nx 30mins or so. 10pm we nd to zhao le. nd go back camp. so come here use comp awhile. since the shopping centre we walk til can memorize the whole bloody place liao. rofl.

later going to dota til 4am le. or at least according to wat they tell me when they jio me juz nw. tml guard duty nd wake up at 7am sommore. NVM i still can chiong. wahaha.

u take care ok? vomit sure means something wrong de. either something u ate is bad, or ur body needs rest, coz too tired den sure sot sot de. but u say u 2dae rest le. so hope u can enjoy ur weekend bahs. my weekend both days on duty. lmao. nvm. save $.

OH YA. tok abt $. sending back quite a big amount back home this mth. i hope it can help dad n mum. and my home leave 50% confirmed le!! its the harder 50%!! coz my officer clear me for it le!! so nw left the admin procedure. if it goes smoothly.. den 16th to 28th JULY i'll be back. anyone looking forward to me coming back? coz i look forward to seeing u all =(

2008-05-02T18:59:00.002+08:00

labor day was, well.. actually happy! coz morning was practically slacking around. then the camp welfare officer decided to let us hav games in the afternoon. but in the end it became free-and-easy, so while i was in bunk slacking, suddenly one guy called me, then tell me.. "OEI LAI SNG DOTA!!!" i was like O.O can!!! den i ask him how the hell can play during office hours. they say they ask officer liao. WTH?! first time in my life i heard such thing. officer allow us to dota in our mess. ROFL. so 6 of us reali machiam lan shop liaos. all playing at same place, using our router, haha.

today oso not so bad bahs. actuali hav work to do, but duno y i feeling like i've accomplished alot. maybe i have? but i always hav the feelin i miss out alot of things coz i was so free most of the time.

keep thinkin of random stuffs recently.

i'm actualli wondering more and more who might(or might not be) the other person(or persons) who feel the same abt me, which i nvr find out who it was, other den de colleague.

i'm actualli gettin more n more blank as to wat i wanna do when i'm back in sg. ya i would wanna eat bak chor mee. i would wanna go to all the places which i've nva gone for so many mths n see wat changes hav occured. i saw a tv program this afternoon, is about singapore ghost stories. but its not abt the ghost stories. the show situated in SG. and for the 1st time in 5mths i saw SG TAXI. i feel so swakoo. but i think u all shld understand bahs. i feel so distant from homeland now =( from the simple things like missing my neighbourhood, to missing my friends, and the food..

and i just sms my father in the afternoon. it seems our moving house shld b confirmed le bahs. just that nw waiting for HDB to rent us a flat, den can move out le. papa say mayb afew more mths. haiz. NOOOO!! i wan to be in tampines!!! tampines got all my friends!!! it has alot of meaning for me oso!!! =(((

2008-04-29T15:20:00.002+08:00

my friend saw my SAF card de picture.. den based on my face he say i last time skinny not like now!!!

ROAR!!! means wat!! i now fat?? but then again, i look in mirror, ya la abit more meat den last time bahs. lols. i;m blur now. is it a gd thing or a bad thing. zzz. heavier den harder to do pull up lehs. as if my shoulder oredi not causing me enuff problems =(((((

2008-04-28T16:05:00.002+08:00

now at canteen. using the com for awhile before going for guard duty. i purposely drop by alot earlier today so i can update blog wor! *ahem* =P.

anyways. the recent weekend seemed long for me. weird lehs. fri nite was on guard duty. den saturday morning finish. but i cant sleep after bathing. so end up was playin psp. chionging FF7 as usual. oredi complete le. trying out hard mode. but slowly getting more n more sian le. coz i reach the point whr there's oli afew things left to unlock, den the rest of the time trying to find items to upgrade my attk and hp nia. not exactly worth spending the time IMO lols.

slept thru sat afternoon coz dota kaki went out. den i oso can go out but i nth to do oso. so i took the chance to rest lohs. end up dat day play 2 games nia. coz at nite got soccer lol.

sunday den i chiong dota wif another guy. we play 2v2 ai.. -arnedm.. LOL.. win all de way coz i beside him can guide n coordinate attk. if not he sure die alot lols.

tml i took off!! hehehe. in the morning i hav guard rest. i took afternoon off! hahaha. now i smart liao. last time i wasted a half day coz i duno can talk half day.

random thoughts running thru my mind abt certain stuffs n pple in SG.. =/

2008-04-21T18:42:00.002+08:00

hmm. nth much happen. so i'm gonna blog abit about last friday. most impt thing happen i nvr say -.-

last fri, my logistic branch had cohesion outing XD. we work half day nia. den afternoon we go bowling lols. very long nvr bowl le. fun XD. the last time was at my unit in SG, also cohesion outing. made me think, wah rao eh, SAF's cohesion fav spot is bowling sibo? haha.

evening came back to camp. had bbq. some fucked up thing spoiled my whole mood. this one smth to do wif camp stuff so cant put details here as usual. anyway still had fun bahs. coz crapped around wif frens, and drink!!! as usual my skin still so damn sensitive, drink heineken no problem, den once i drink 1st cup of hard liqour my face red liaos. zzz. natural reaction of all my frens is they tot i drunk la. but any smart person oso can tell i not drunk -.-". oli de beginning lohs. but i had to stop coz i was on standby duty that nite. den nx day still got 24hr guard duty sommore hahahaha. actuali if i not scare i can huat. but oh well. i noe there'll be other chances.

random thought: i'm here for 4mths and 1week liao. time really does pass kinda fast. yet slow sometimes. i was right, it will pass very fast n fun n smooth IF i dun hav the ippt issue. now i keep worrying nia. coz surely one day boss will come n bug me on why i haven pass ippt.

guys, pray for me my home leave can be approved, i'm tentatively deciding to fly back on the 16th july, and go off on 29th july. *pray*

2008-04-20T09:45:00.003+08:00

hehes. another 2weeks plus nvr update. oopsie. =X

i suppose now its my turn to say this, i'm too tired to think of wat to say in blog, too tired to think back n blog.. coz of all the shit happening.. who likes to think back n remember all the shit? no one..

but then again, this is wad a blog is abt.. its about she-dogging and crapping.. and some time down the road when i read back on my posts.. i'll rem wat a great time i had in brunei, and all de up n downs here..

little update on my psp (coz i was reading wat i said prev post b4 typing lol).. my faulty 4gb mem card i pass to my fren le, who's now back in sg for his home leave.. he help me go find the fooker to do a 1 to 1 exchange.. in the meantime i using my friend, arthur's mem card.. prev one.. faizal's one.. died on me.. nb.. my DJMAX data all gone.. but nvm. now i chiong even faster n way beyond my prev time le haha. typical me lahs. music game i sure ZHUA one. audition and patapon is in my lappy waiting for me to start, but man man lai!! now chionging FF7: Crisis Core!! jus out for PSP nia!! hahah.. one of the sergeant end his tour le.. he left ytd.. means now i'm the one who chiong the furthest n unlock the most stuff lols..

in camp.. same old stuff's been happening i guess.. got some lj daiji happening.. vampy noes bahs.. but cant say in blog coz of security reason =). dats y i seldom mention abt camp stuff in blog.

and about vampy.. erm.. fri nite said some stuff to her.. i duno if it'll mean any difference anot. but i dowan to say de! is u keep asking me! =( i feel so helpless oso lors. in brunei cant do anything but sms nia.. and y i in brunei le den so many of my friends nd help.. those kind of help which requires me to be physically around.. ARGHS. adding more reasons for me to regret coming here.

oh well. i guess i'll juz leave everything to fate.

u take care at work ok? careful of that malay toot hors. fren is fren, work is work, but comes to certain things u shld b careful le. =) and rem the lesson u learnt on fri nite. glad ur feeling better the nx day. i can oli sms ni, but i will always be around mentally for u now =)

one thing i 4got to reply u. u said he explain he was waiting at bus stop the whole time. honeslty. CONFIRM LYING. if waiting at bus stop the whole time, still cant reply or call u at all meh? fucking lousy liar.

back to chionging FF7!!! =X

2008-04-02T20:10:00.002+08:00

paisehs.. almost 2 weeks nvr update.. sorry la vampy can! =x

noe y i so long nvr update.. coz i also so long bo guard duty! haha. 21st march was my last guard duty for that mth.. den this mth of april.. 1st one is on 4th april. this friday. so its about 13-day rest.. down here this is considered super rare n good lors. XD. den coz no guard duty, i spent most of the nights dotaing. den bo pian when i dota, the wireless hav to switch to other settings. so cant connect internet.

but 2dae i come online le. coz nd download psp games haha. toking abt psp. DULAN LORS!! my fren in camp recommend this dealer he knows, got package etc etc. k nvm abt the package details. i ask for comments from other pple, they say is reasonable. so i go for it. 1st dissapointment come when i found out i was alittle bit late. den blue no more stock le. haiz. black is so common lors. i wan blue!!! den nvm. i close one eye. so we settle the deal. and i ask another friend wif iBanking to help me xfer the payment. that one settle le. left waiting for one of the guys who is on home leave, in SG, to help me collect from the dealer den bring back to brunei.

so he come back, den test the psp. found out got problem lors!! starting tot is console problem, but now we confirm is the memory card problem. though is settle le, the dealer say will give one to one exchange, but still dulan lors! my own psp cant even start playing! its in front of me but i still have to wait for the next guy to go back singapore to help to exchange the memory card. NB. if i in sg i go down to the shop n fuck the guy liao. PUI!!!

work wise.. usual stress bahs.. except now duno y suddenly emphasis very big on fitness again.. den i always explain say my shoulder problem. but den nobody downgrade me. se be sian lor. so now i'm really worried if IPPT cant pass, den my home leave wont be approved in july. arghs.

watched Click yesterday. one of the movies which i watch duno hw many times le. but every single time i will surely cry. cannot control de lohs. coz last part realli sad. den lesson learnt can relate to real life oso. except in the movie he got a 2nd chance thx to the angel. haiz. i wish an angel can come give me a 2nd chance also. i would hav chosed to go back to the start of poly, den hao hao de study n make friends, and make alot more correct choices so i wun be in this state now.

i suddenly feel like biting my vampy. LOL.

2008-03-23T10:21:00.000+08:00

22mar's post.. typing offline coz its 2am? just finish dota wif the guys.. got router le! NO MORE DC!! plenty of GOOD GAMES!!

pauline's comp kena some kinda virus from the thumbdrive which she plugged into her comp.. suay.. so she gotta reformat everything.. den nd to repatch audition.. sian. no ballroom partner le =(..

on other notes.. 2dae went out at 7pm.. just coz needed to buy some food for one of the guys.. the restaurant oso not nearby.. hav to go gadong.. so i went shopping for my own things as well.. didnt plan on buying it.. but i had just enuff $ for the comforter set =D.. bedsheet + pillowcase + comforter.. $79.90.. 220 thread count O.O.. i'm lying on it now.. feels goooooddd... =D.. good riddance with the 'default' bedsheet n blanket.. fucking lousy.. sleep at nite still feel damn cold.. blanket like no blanket..

end up i realized. buy that one le. no $ buy top up card for my brunei line LOL! heng enuff to survive afew smses.. tml den i buy bahs.. den wanted to top up my own snacks oso haha. that one nvm ba.

i wonder how's vampire doing at work. oh wait. sat no work haha. but fri oso nvr tok to her. duno hw was that day =x. eh wait. friday was good friday for SG hor. damns. no wonder so quiet can! roar! bo xim nvr sms wo.

HAO! enuff typing! i wan sleep on my comfy comfy bed now! yippie~~ =x

2008-03-19T18:59:00.000+08:00

sighs. ok the bad part of today is over. pauline n jun noes why. haiz. but the work dat comes after it is worse. as usual. after i take over. den so many thing introduced. wat i'm doing is 2x more den my upperstudies. knnnbcccbbbb..

shant say much here. anyways. wat i've been doing recently? printing stuffs, basically labels n charts. to make my store look nicer. and to assist my efficiency. got spare time to do all these better do. i've realized once got major things for me to do, i reali is run here n there til no time to tend to my own admin stuff.

tml is public holiday. LOL. brunei got alot more holidays den sg coz got simi sultan bdae. tml is simi prophet muhammed bdae. shiok. but after this holiday. dry period for the nx 3mths le. darns.

downloaded cabal during office hour ytd HAHA. thx to DAP. i did it in 2hrs ++. dats 840mb in 2hrs+. IN BRUNEI. lawlll. honestly to a certain extent i see similar or even better speeds here. SOMETIMES nia. well from wat i heard. the connection they use for our camp is the best in the country. i'm like.. "wtf??!!?!?!?!!!?!?!" oh ya its not sg. this is the best, i can understand. hehe.

but. jun say she wun play wif me. coz i put girl char again. wa lau. this one diff from maple lehs. i know cabal graphics is gd lor. its not a new game lehs. the guy chars look cool. but girl chars look even cooler. oh well. mayb i shld use guy. but suay suay i been trying to do that whole of today. either cabal cant login, or internet connection sot sot. knnbccb. dats y i typing this offline. den once can online i post.

2008-03-14T17:56:00.003+08:00

ok lol. due to some prob wif connection again. past few days didnt online. lucky my relationship wif de guy in charge of this gettin good =D. i ask him help me re-enter my mac address into the system. den poof~~ i'm online now ler.

de rest of the post is backdated. 12march de.. =x

TONIGHT GOIN TO CHIONG DOTA SESSION AGAIN HAHAHAHAA~!!!!!

(Commencing 12th march's post)

Dammnn... today is a book out day but i nvr book out. simple reason. no one pei wo =( den ownself go out oso fucking sian. decided to stay in camp to online. BUT OmG. cannot connect duno y. sigh. so end up playing hellgate. now 9.12pm. stop playing le. coz eyes gettin tired. so decide to blog and sleep.

got good news and bad news. good news i think not much pple will understand oso. but to me is gd news. or rather a gd achievement. we hav a 4+km run every tues and thurs. when i first came i was doing 25mins+++ for that run. last mth i managed to improve it to the minimum standard of 24mins. meaning i did it in less den 24min. and ytd i broke 23min!!! i did it in 22:56 LOL. ok its slow la. but i not fit wat. for me its a very gd achievement lors. but sigh like i mentioned. dun think anyone can understand =x. except one person perhaps. but nvm. anyway for that person, if ur reading now, u might be interested in the nx paragraph.

ok.. in other news. i gained 6kg. yes, everyone, u are not reading wrongly. for EVERYONE WHO HAS KNOWN ME FOR VERY LONG. u all know i never gain weight one rite?? well. its been 3mths i'm here le. and in this 3mths i GAINED FUCKING 6KG!!! LOL!!! muz be due to my limitless appetite which i hav been saying again n again. BUT!! u all dun imagine me as some chubby guy HOR!! i'm still the same from head to toe. precisely why i'm having a big question mark oso. WHERE THE HELL THE 6KG COME FROM!?!? i'm guessing most prob my at my legs? but it doesnt seem to hav more muscles or wat lehs. my legs were always that size. my arms are still as skinny. my stomach is not big. my face is not chubby. this is so wthhhh. but gain oso gd. finally i'm not borderline acceptable weight lers. no nd to worry whether i drop down to underweight or wat oso. HEHE.

i juz hope i dun gain another 6kg the nx 3mths. LOL!. if i do den reali jialat le. but for the first time IN MY LIFE today i actuali started controlling my food intake. =/

ehs. dat vampire must hav went to slp after watching her drama zzz. no more reply since afternoon. COUGH COUGH. u noe hu u r. =x.

2008-03-10T18:31:00.006+08:00

OMG. fuzi forgot how to register taiwan audi ler!. OMG i still cant rem my login!. OMG i cant even start a new char. OMG!. nehmind fuzi gave me her acct to play for de time being. but.. OMG. error when i login. says i'm missing some file, cant rem de name but its obvious its a lobby file, some image file or smth.

anyway. blog abit about my guard duty ytd. was prowling around the camp at 4+ AM. and i reali think it was fated for me to see it. because normally i would take the watchclock and be the one going around to the checkpoints. but ytd my fren did that, so all i had to do was wait for him while i used the walkie talkie to report back to guardroom. when i was waiting outside one of the checkpoints. i SO HAPPENED to look up, and it SO HAPPENED at that very moment at that very spot i was looking at.. i saw a shooting star!! damn bright and very fast went past, the distance of it shooting past was short oso, so i was feelin so lucky to see it. made me smile for awhile heh. of course as the saying went, i made a wish. hope it'll come true.

today supposed to go for 2hr guard rest. but i after guard duty. 8am i report to work le. work whole day dun even hav time to rest. now at nite i oso dun wan to rest ler. i'm nocturnal lors. all of u shld noe LOL. at nite i sure awake de HAHAH. anyway. i feel gd oso bahs at the end of the day. at least i accomplished quite alot of things. feels gd. =).

saturday bought dark chocolate to eat. LOLs. bought quite afew dvds. bought a bermudas. bought alot of snacks. bought top up card for my brunei line. ate pork in lunch and dinner. in the middle bought ice cream n a choco malt to snack. /me big appetite hehe. all in all i spent $110 on sat alone. b4 u all say anything. this is not alot lors. wanna noe why? coz i nvr go out for TWO WEEKS before this day. RAWRRRR!! =/.

oh yahs. and i bought HELLGATE:LONDON oso ler.. hahahah!!. is pirated la of course. but it can work!. got new game to play on my pc lers. seems entertainment will never end ler. coz i got alot of dvds i buy haven watch. and i'm always pulling the guys along to play dota or cs le. they oso getting hooked to it ler. hahaha. XD

2008-03-08T11:35:00.000+08:00

my frequency of blogging seems to be goin back to previous times le. haha. gettin lesser n lesser. mostly coz everything is repeated. but its still abit more den the past yr or so. coz i dun reali hav many means to express out watever i wanna say. n since the other option is gone, so i'll blog more. THEN again, i've also been coming online alot more often, so chattin in msn is another option which i found =D.

supposed to go another camp 2dae to check on my items there. but due to last minute changes. i had to go ytd. 2dae i'm back in my original camp le. goin to that camp is always a blessing in disguise. coz at that camp i wont be disturbed by the fucking noisy malays, dont nd to bother whether i got go jogging anot, no responsibilities at all, so bottom line was.. i could sleep!!! that was the blessing!! =x yups. i slept first from 6pm to 8+pm.. then practically stoned in bed, played abit of my ds, then slept again at 11+pm all de way to 7.30am, in my camp i would hav to wake up at 6.45 lol. shiokness. settled watever i needed to settle. loaded my crates containing my items onto de vehicle, den waited for the boat to put de vehicle. den it was sleeping time again! 3hr+ of sleeping from 1pm to 4pm. LOL.

so now is 3.48am. just finished dota session wif de guys. our network still freaking unstable. 2dae tyco managed to have ONE full game nia. the rest was made up of 10-20min random timing rounds. den someone dc and we hav to rm.

i cant beleive it. but i'm sleepy again. oh well. i wanna play sommore game de =(.

trix. my taiwan audi OK LIAO! HEHEHE... BUT!! i forgot my login. tmd. i msn fuzi for help le coz she was the one who created acct for me, duno if she rem wat login id i used anot. i dowan to start new char. but i guess if cant retrieve den it shld also be a hint bahs. a hint for me to create a new acct. and not use girl char LOL. (though i'll nd u all de help in creating acct again. my pc cant read chinese, and neither can i LOL )

2008-02-29T16:57:00.003+08:00

omg. for the first time since de 1st day i stepped in here. i actualli slept 7hrs straight without waking up on wed nite!! considering i'm a lite sleeper and the malays staying on the same floor wif me is noisy.. is reali OMG. lol. normally always wake up twice or more de.. =x..

things seem to be getting more fun in bunk.. the guys on the 1st floor starting to noe i'm a gamer le.. cs,standard warcraft,dota,diablo.. everything i oso got play.. lmao.. so now quite often will hav pple to play dota/cs wif le..hehes.. not a bad stress reliever i might say..

work wise.. well.. i cant say its getting better.. but i cant say its getting worse oso la.. coz i am slowly learning and gettin better at it.. gettin pissed at certain people.. but i'm tryin to tell myself to tahan.. i rem something that was told to me.. about people are born wif gd life, or people are not born wif gd life.. i belonged to the 'are not'.. but sometimes its being in the 'are not' then time will pass faster.. (though sometimes abit too fast LOL. too fast til i cant complete work by deadline LOL)..

though i nw everyday thinkin of wat i wanna enjoy after i come back in oct.. i can confirm once i realli come back i sure blur as to wat i realli wanna do first de hahah..

i miss everyone. kudos to all those who's chatting wif me, in tagging or msn or email.. =)

2008-02-27T22:30:00.001+08:00

first time i'm bloggin offline in 2 weeks. actuali is i 4got to blog when i online juz nw lawl. so nw in bunk typing.

been goin online very often recently. signs of life improving. i can chat alot more. its almost like as if i'm sg ler =). just less of playing online games nia. and cant arrange to meet up. though i AM arranging with everyone i chat with to go out wif me when i come back for home leave XD.. my old buddy, ber, pauline, mayb lod n junjun too.. hmms.. but kinda thinkin who i can ask out together for my bdae.. as in.. i noe i hav to split into afew days, but i try to group as many as i can together.

being in brunei has reali changed my thinkin alot. i miss all my friends. i miss my family. i miss my home. i miss the entertainment in SG. and all of u reading this, if ur complaining dat u did everything in SG already, pls trust me, think again b4 u say that. u dont wat is called BORING until u come brunei n stay for 10mths. so dont take the entertainment in SG for granted. i miss the singapore environment. but i noe it'll be the other way round when i come back. i'll definitely definitely definitely miss the politeness of everyone in brunei, miss the relaxed pace of life in brunei..

i'm slowly thinkin of sooo many things i wanna do, all of which i could not afford to do last time. its good that i'm planning to spend it wif friends. at least i noe the memory will never be painful.

fuzi say i shld change my look, pauline oso ask me to change.. eh u all saying i nw look beri ugly ar.. i like all my clothes now lehs.. i oso got consider changing my look.. do my own makeover or smth.. but i've never decided to purposely look in a particular fashion in my life.. like wat me and andrew said during our poly days.. who gives a fuck wat pple say man? i wear wat i feel comfortable can liao .. TIO BO!?!? =x.. though i kinda feel dat cranky bro of mine got more vain as the years passed, and me.. well.. i just didnt hav the habit of spending on clothes.. i mean.. i go shoppping wif frens or whoever.. and i look at guys clothes.. there has been NO such situation where i saw a shirt and went "WAH i DIEDIE want this shirt/pants/accessory/watever".. -.-" ..

dat one i go back den see hw bahs ok.. clothes if wan buy is nvr ending one.. so i think about other stuff first.. i wanna get a nice pair of shades =p.. i wan to go holiday oso (ANYONE GOT ANY PLACE IN MIND?! GO TOGETHER!! I'M SERIOUS!!) people closer to me shld noe i always dreammmmmmed of going on a holiday wif friends and just having fun.. of course there was a time when i just dreamt of going on a holiday wif my partner. but like i said, wif friends better, the memory will never be painful.. so places like hong kong,japan,america.. ANYWHERE!!! =x.. i wanna get a better hp oso.. and a solid desktop XD.. die.. sounds like i'm gonna spend alot. but heck la. i'm not young anymore le. and once i step out into society i might not hav time for holidays le..

i'm not gonna chiong arcade dats for sure. i've decided only to spend the $ on things dat is worth it. could be in terms of the memories or for the sake of gd times with friends. exceptions will be FOOD =x. bein able to eat gd food is hey-vann~~

dang its late. type type til i din realize its 11.36pm le. SLEEPPPP.. fugging tired =(

2008-02-24T13:18:00.002+08:00

dang. last nite was shiok. played dota from 11+ til 3+ AM !!!! wahahah!! wif some other guys.. but according to those lao jiao de.. last time used to hav more pple playing..

however.. though it was about 3hr+ of dota. oli played one complete game. coz keep having one person dc.. its smth to do with the connection. i think unstable. some random person is bound to dc. den we had to restart all over.

even the last game one of our frens dc. den we no choice. had to continue le. luckily got me.. so 4 of us vs 5 INSANE AI oso can win. nono i not bhb. but my hero made de difference. coz i'm using magnataur. empower all of dem to beef their dmg up. and i initiate ulti , follow up combined wif SF's ulti = pwn.

their skills are all ok. but one of them didnt even noe wat roshan does. LOL. but i suppose we cannot judge by vs AI. 2nite got enuff pple to play vs le. yay. AI is irritating.

ytd i reali didnt go out at all. end up just decided to relax in camp. continue downloading my taiwan audi and dis new game dat my buddy intro (not u ber, is tianshi) =x.. 2dae shld b de same thing. but is coz i duty storeman. =(

2008-02-23T12:37:00.002+08:00

woots. anddd... its the end of the week! like i said it would be.. it WAS a good week.. =)

busy most of the days. but can survive. starting to touch up on the non-work stuffs le. like decorating my bunk, tidying & cleaning up de dust.. re arraged some furniture around.. nw i can lie down n use laptop coz i put a table beside my bed, same height sommore hehe. feels more comfortable. cleared up alot of things in my bag oso.. =)

today wan to go buy some of those stick-on clothes hooks.. but 2dae is brunei de pub holiday.. their new year.. all shops closed.. DUH.. and today is the only day i can book out.. DUH x2.. nehmind.. de day is still long.. if i not booking out den i juz online whole day and hope someone comes online to chat wif me..

2008-02-18T19:00:00.002+08:00

first LIVE blogging from camp!! lols. or 2nd at most. previously was bloggin in internet cafe. and there's alot of drafts. for my own memory and no one else =)

had to go internet cafe coz the camp one sot tio. but now rectified abit. at least can connect le. i'll still book out to use internet once in awhile bahs. but mostly will stay in camp le. getting kinda lazy. camp oso feels more like "home". and i realli emphasize on the inverted commas. "home" coz can wear slipper bah long long walk around.. no nd dress up nice nice go out..

busy like fuck today. and i really mean like fuck. running around from my store to office to cargo bay to store to cargo bay to the other end of camp to tank shed to office blah blah.. and chore after chore come in coz i'm duty storeman today.. BUT AMAZINGLY I SETTLE EVERYTHING!!! WOOOTS. though at de end of the day i almost cannot tahan. i slam the door. i reali dowan to fa pi qi in camp lors. coz i wan portray a kind n polite person. but yet i nd to be tough enuff not to kena bully. army is full of fuckers. yes i'm also in army. but i didnt say everyone is a fucker lol. i'm the minority XD

gonna try play some o2jam le. lalala. it'll be a good week for me. muz stay postive. lalala. hehe. hehe.

2008-02-09T16:11:00.000+08:00

wa fuck. cafe playin a song dat makes me fucking angry...

2008-02-09T14:55:00.000+08:00

a quote.. and my thought about it..

"...so dat i can prepare myself 4 e person who will treat me right..."

u din treat me wrong totally,but just 1 wrong move is all it takes.. thx 2 pauline's fren hu gave me e advice,whoeva u r..

2008-02-07T14:42:00.000+08:00

such a fake day for me. fake smiles. ber knows i'm tryin to preoccupy myself. ber knows 2yr+ not easy to forget. prob the same wif her. or not i oso duno.. but she didnt seem to think abt this when she did her mistakes. its natural now to think she's having a easier time forgettin everything.

i still havent got that explanation from her. will she give? will she bother?

its true, people never change. i'll never change, she'll never change, but the word i've realized.. is improvement. we all will improve over time. i know i have, i know i still am, i know i will try. as for her, i hope she will too. for the sake of me or her or other people that is a seperate issue which i may or may not ever find out.

woke up around 9+. play game til 12. den went canteen for the camp's 'special' lunch. yea it was special in a sense its oli 2dae they serve this. chicken chop set. but we needed to wear nice clothes to the canteen. lucky someone told me in time if not i wear shorts n army t-shirt down le.. reach there i anyhw took 2 oranges den juz wish commander happy new year. lol got one ang pao from him. it was $6 lol.

happy occasion for most. not for me. not because its away from home. i'm way past those feelings le. i wun beat abt the bush. its aggie dat was on my mind. ate the meal den went back to bunk.

at bunk play abit game til 1+ 2+? den felt so empty all of a sudden. i thought mayb i was tired. so i took a nap. slept til 6+. decided to wake up. cant slp too much if not spoil my body clock.

so its 7.45pm now. finished one round of boss killing in diablo. nth to do now le. mayb will play my ds le.

received new year sms from dad, aggie, and... ravi?!?.. ya.. supposedly "my" friend.. or rather.. "dawnnie's".. pui.. i dun hate ravi.. just the link that he came from .. i hate..

my eyes are wet suddenly.. i think i just feel like releasing.. but i duno how.. i noe my tears wun drop here..

argh.

2008-02-06T14:50:00.000+08:00

juz back from reunion dinner. not much comments abt it bahs. normal lou hei n normal steamboat. now i in bunk using laptop, but my window view can see the rest of the guys playing fireworks n firecracker. i got gd view sia. gd air con oso =X. gd distraction from my issues. first time i get so close to the fireworks n first time i see actual firecracker oso. wish i wasnt alone. but the moment i start thinkin i start hurting.

however. waiting in my cd-rom is AVP2. my mind is complicated yet simple. i haven see this movie i hate this movie le. not coz its not nice to watch. coz of other things which i think i keep to myself bahs. complicated way of linking things, but simple once the reason is understood.

been afew days. got alot of comments. mostly telling me i made the right choice. got lots of support from them too. and oso they owe me stuff. like outings and visits to their home (this one obvious is ber lol). thx to the 3 pple who tried their best to comfort n make me happy. pauline,karen,ber.. and another one who duno hw to say much but still tryin her best to cheer me up.. my mei.. oh ya.. and henry too.. u guys will never see this. but in my heart,a big thank you goes out to all of u..

its not that i oli find girls to talk to.. i havent been able to get andrew n tianming yet.. and also.. too much of a long story to say le.. so when i'm back in sg i intend to find them to chill out at the beach..

ate a fortune cookie at the dinner. the paper said i am capable,creative,careful, and another 'c' i 4got le.. abi fake to me -.-.. lol. at least i knew got paper inside. better den my fren ate teh whole thing din noe got paper inside til we told him LAWL!!..

aight gonna go watch the movie le.. alone.

2007-12-13T23:05:00.000+08:00

Almost 1mth nvr blog. alot of things happened. its goin to be a big change of events..

in this 1mth.. my overseas posting was confirmed.. and the date of departure is.. tomorrow.

too many, many things hav been happening since then. busy with many many things.

now i dont know if i shld rest more to prepare for 2molo.. or enjoy myself this very last night in SG.. i'm so excited abt the plane trip itsef coz its my first time.. but abit of sian-ness abt the destination lols. mixed feelings rather. i just hope i wont be dissapointed about the few things i hope to hav over there.

anyways. to all reading this blog. again, pls help me take care of aggie.. i will miss all of u very much.. pray for me that the environment over there in terms of the people and the working environment is good.. i'll take care of myself, and i hope all of u do too.. i'll definitely look everyone up when i'm back in SG..

2007-11-18T15:27:00.000+08:00

dang, i'm supposed to go cut hair 2dae, and pick up smth from interchange.. but too nua ler.. and my mama bdae oso 2dae.. so i guess i leave the hair cut to nx week..

so bored at home.. ya i might hav many games in my comp.. but all meaningless le if i'm playing alone.. or not playing for a bigger picture.. and my comp lag, so i cant possibly enjoy.. probably this is wat i'm fated to be.. alone.

hmm. talking abt bigger picture. feel like buying jigsaw puzzle n do. but again it'll b alone, so.. oh well..

i'm not stupid,neither is the other one.. i juz dont know how to discuss or reach a decision when things seem to be hanging in every direction and every place.. not having a firm stand or a view which i can base on wif regards to everything.. its like i'm floating in the middle of a big bubble, and no matter where i see things from, its just one big roundabout.. which i cant take it.. =/

2nd bad dream ytd.. makes it two in 3 days.. am i going crazy? i've never dreamt this much , be it gd or bad, about a single issue in my life.. i wish it was juz like the movie matrix. someone pls get me out of this. and i hope it'll b the girl.

imu, ilu.

add-on. juz emo thoughts earlier. now feeling alot better. its amazing how a phone call can just turn everything around. =). hope ur comp will be back up soon. den u can tok to all ur friends in msn again. and rest well k. monday's gonna be a long n sian n shag day for u at work. u may or may not get to see this in time but nvm. =D

*off to camp lers. lalala~*

2007-11-10T23:42:00.001+08:00

i just feel so happy to see a tag, a testi, somehw dat feeling of warmth came back.. the same warmth as i had those 2yrs+. the same warmth whenever i was outside the past few mths n see couples happily holding hands,hugging,etc and think of us =/

now she's feeling sick. and i'm worried sick. she shld b slpin nw. or at least trying to. i somehow think the sickness will prevent her from slpin soundly.. haiz. hw i wish alot of things wernt that restricted.. if i could i would just go over to her house to pei her the whole of today until she has to go ahma hse.. then again i didnt ask whether anyone at home anot.. but dats just why i wish thinigs werent that restricted.. if not i can just go over n suppliesss her... i cant help thinkin about how it would b alot nicer if i stayed near her.. like certain pple.. =/..

listening to huang hun now.. memories flowing back.. i'm gonna be emo ler.. T_T

2007-11-09T01:17:00.000+08:00

ups and downs , mixture of everything so far this week.. emotions.. decisions.. hmm. time passes so slow, yet so fast.. stuck in a matrix which i cannot comprehend..

just back from bugis.. another nice day, at least as far as company is concerned.. bunny tails are so nice to play with F3 =x..

i nd to control my spendings alot more in camp this mth.. i was realizing that i starting to spend abit more coz at my unit every morning sure go tea break.. =.=.. cannot let it be a habit.. everyday can save at least $1.50..

i had a sweet dream on sun nite.. very sweet dream.. i dream i was hugging her.. and she slipped the ring back onto my finger.. and i cried.. obviously tears of joy.. but then i woke up.. and my heart kinda dropped for a moment.. =/

i completed FF3 on DS lers.. its about light n darkness not being balanced, and the only pure force that can fight and bring back the equilibrium is HOPE. it is the only pure light in each and every human being. kinda true for me now. all i have is hope. everyday i'm hoping.

God didnt give me what i wanted, instead he gave me what i needed. this is the last sentence of an email which i saw in camp. it was meaningful, the whole thing. nd to write down n post it up again. it kinda gave me more strength to carry on wif my situation upon reading it, even after seeing smth which is dated about 1mth ago, very hurting.. abit backdated coz i very long nvr login n see.. if u noe wat i mean, i'm sorry about that issue, juz hope wat u said in there is past le..

Author's Note: If u dun understand anything in this post, dats coz it isn't meant for u to understand. I've read thru wat i typed and yes its confusing, LOL. So to be more direct, if you're a random reader, juz dun bother abt the parts which u dont understand, coz its not meant for u =)

2007-11-04T20:09:00.000+08:00

had a little bit longer weekend dis week.. coz i had my unit cohesion outing to safra yishun on fri.. just some simple bowling session.. lols.. but spent almost my whole friday at lan.. coz there wasnt anyone outside to meet.. and camping at home isnt exactly wat i'm looking forward to start off my weekend oso.. zzz.. wat to do.. fucked up pc at home oso..

saturday was quick oso.. hopped around afew games in the afternoon.. den went for steamboat wif the DM gang.. aggie says she sms me last minute say she wanna come.. but i didnt receive it at all.. luckily she still made it in time b4 we started.. lols coz the guys couldnt resist playing GF6th mix abit b4 eating..

surprisingly me,aggie,and cheekeen were the ones who lasted longest leh.. the rest either appetite small.. or all cmi at chionging steamboat liaos..ate finish around 8+.. went to arcade again.. den off to bugis le.. aggie told her papa she 11.30 den reach home coz we still eating.. LOL.. but end up we 11.30 den take bus from bugis home sia. i 4got to see the time.. which is unusual whenever i'm wif her.. coz i dowan her to reach home late n kena scolded by her parents for nth.. sent her home den went to bus stop.. kept thinking whether to take taxi home anot coz it was MIDNITE le.. but i see the schedul.. stil got bus.. so heng.. took 23.. den heng still got 21 at safra.. reached home around 1+ .. but i was very happy.. it was a short outing.. but.. for once in the past few mths.. my heart reali felt happy..

as for 2dae.. din do much lors. played a custom map in WC which occupied afew hours but i think is purely waste of time. played abit DS. den napped 1hr+. den stone. nw packing to go back camp le.. i'm just sian that i cant get to slp on my bed 2nite nia. and also sian abt the fact that i hav to carry my big duffle bag all de way to yishun.. but other den that.. i'm happy =D.. really happy =D

2007-10-28T23:48:00.001+08:00

Spent the whole saturday at home rotting.. alternating between staring at the comp.. to staring at hp.. den stare at ds.. and all over again.. stare til i got so tired.. =/. and getting abt cranky and moody.. its madness when a NSF has to spend one day of his precious weekend doing this.. saturday sommore!!

but anyway.. spent the whole day outside wif aggie,hen,ber,nette,ming.. celebrate hen's bdae.. fun day.. plenty of craps.. i would say just like old times.. but.. not reali like old times ler bahs.. =/

as usual i only start reflecting on things, once i turn away from aggie at her flat, once i'm alone.. its been 1.5weeks since dat 2hr midnite chat we had.. i duno wats the update on her side wif regards to the fact dat she said she'll think abt it, but ultimately i noe we cant do much due to the 2 facts, one is i'm on course these 2weeks, and she wants to concentrate on her job.. i kinda hope on wed when i go back to my unit den i can pei her more after work, if she allows me to.. kinda think dat dis is de time whr we can do n prove more if needed bahs.. between me n her we'll noe.. its according to wat i mentioned to her on msn.. hope she can rem =x..

de 'devil' in me is telling me to giv up on this kinda pple, telling me my efforts not worth it.. but nah.. again n again i realize.. my feelings prevailed.. i just love her too much le.. so f*** off 'devil'.. you've made me do alot of stupid things dat caused this in the first place.. it will not happen anymore le!! zzz.. paiseh sounds very drama this part.. but its true.. =/

i may not be brave enuff to do certain things,or creative enuff to surprise her wif an original creation or anything, but i believe she's not blind, and as much as she saw my mistakes, i hope she can see wat's written in my heart.. i'll at least do everything i can, and the rest.. well.. leave it to cupid? or fate? or a little bitsy of luck? *shrugs ler..* .. nw go lalaland n hopefully i dun get that nightmare again.. T_T

2007-10-24T23:32:00.000+08:00

The power of love - still wanting to be with the person no matter how much he or she has hurt u..

i've heard of this b4.. i'm sure plenty of us have too.. a friend mentioned this to me.. and den i think to myself.. so this is how it feels.. =/.. the feeling of love.. =.= the feeling of being hurt.. yet still longing for that person.. though it clashes with another saying that goes "he/she who is worth it wont hurt u".. but i suppose that one is very subjective.. i mean.. we're all humans.. there's bound to be some hurting here n there once in awhile.. dats human error.. no one is perfect..

sorry.. crapping too much le..

fri's reserved for me.. wow? but sat so fast got plan le.. not dat i'm jumping to conclusions but i suppose i hav afew names in my mind abt that.. haha. but no worries no worries. i've changed. wont bother abt that even if we were tgt.

my course's exam is tml.. practical exam... shyttt man... wish me all de best.. =/

2007-10-23T21:59:00.000+08:00

havent been blogging much since that weekend.. where since then alot of truths about both of us, and wat happened, and our views are finally.. finally.. said out.. too many things changing, and not to mention always tired.. dats y seldom blog.. nth significant to blog abt oso.. and i no camera phone to camwh0re n upload stuff oso.. =/.. and i hav actually received a comment which i totally dun believe? lol.. me yandao? lol?? riiiight...

just decided to blog nw coz.. again i had a bad dream last nite.. my prev bad dreams have all come true.. i dont want this to come true.. pls.. i beg of u up there.. =/..

and also.. to add on.. was sad upon hearing the news abt baby's ex-colleague.. long time ago de.. AIA.. haiz.. why do such nice people hav to be taken away.. when pple like me.. not so nice.. wont mind being taken away but i'm still here o.o".. this world is so 'fair' sometimes. but anyway. God bless this guy, may he find greater happiness and meaning wherever he is now.

most prob playing lan wif ber on friday nite.. and hen's bdae on sunday.. i suggested suki sushi coz all very long nvr go eat there le =D.. oh and friday's another special day .. a special occasion only 1 other person will know.

2007-10-12T02:59:00.000+08:00

i blew my top.. =/

not that i'm feeling really guilty or anything.. but i realli flared up at afew frens during a msn conference just coz they didnt catch onto wat i was saying when i already made it very systematic n clear le.. not to mention i hate last minute things oso..

i guess its a sign.. i realli been taking in alot of things.. and absorbing.. and absorbing.. and absorbing.. now i got no method to release le as bugis got so many fucking v4.. so many pple.. i used to enjoy it when drum v2 was in a corner.. i can just go whack n release stress in peace.. but no more.. =/

i nw just hope saturday will b gd.. duno how gd is my gd.. duno wat kind of 'gd' do i want.. the old times 'gd'.. or move on 'gd'.. argh.. cant even think..

2007-10-09T22:48:00.000+08:00

powderful day.. =/

my right side still hurting til now.. worse den my left side coz that time it subsided on the day itself.. but anyway its still normal compared to wisdom tooth operations in general.. in fact it was abit less jialat den what i expected.. my upper right was easy.. just pluck out.. but my lower right. ouch.. kena drill.. nd split tooth in half.. and after the op they lemme keep my tooth.. i see reali got decay sia..

in a wider point of view, glad this crap tooth is out of my life, as with other things.. a sign of a fresh beginning =)..

and as i expected.. though i'm freaking tired.. i couldnt slp when i reach home.. not until 6pm.. i bth.. fren ask me go rest so i did.. and it felt good.. woke up around 10.. continue drinking my milk.. very xin ku.. reali cant eat anything.. so sorry to my dad who prepared porridge =/.. swallowing tablets for 2dae oso abit hard sia.. coz when swallow my tongue will hit tio the wound.. pain.. and duno y i got more tablets den the prev time.. 2 painkillers, 1anti-bio, and 3 other tablets.. F4.. had to break the panadol into half.. its DAT bad man.. =/

ber.. rem our agreement hor! =) when shall i go over? LOL.

2007-10-09T07:18:00.000+08:00

overslept.. i guess i'm just too mentally tired recently.. realli washed out this time.. lucky still not that bad.. gonna try chiong down asap..

operating on my right side 2dae.. its gonna be more painful,mayb abit longer den 2weeks ago.. though its a diff kinda pain from what i'm already goin thru, but i guess its still nth compared to it..

anyway.. thx for the sms..

2007-10-08T05:54:00.000+08:00

Oh well. This post is after last nite's. One thing i nvr told u. I always hav ways of finding things out. And i know some things about how u address rH le. And its not 'friend'. So with respect to what u say about 'different' feelings. This is what? Dont give excuses. Like i said, how different can it be such that it can change my judgement about u? Kindly explain.

I noticed u still put me as Sotong baby in ur msn when u copied paste smth. I thought u did that because i had hope. I noticed one period of time u and him not linked in friendster. But now add back le. Hmm?

But i trust my own eyes. Wont say what i saw. Some other things i know as well. Wont say it out too. There's no point. Guess to me, my hope is shattered. I started delp, caused u to noe him, and now ur goin wif him, or at least is on the way to going. You're even worse den denise in this aspect. You've changed. Not just the past few mths, but ever since i went in NS. Search your 'liang xin'. Thats the only thing i can tell u to do with yourself now le.

Goodbye. For good.

Add-on: Ironically, today is the exact 2yr6mth anniversary from the 1st day we're together.

2007-10-07T09:37:00.000+08:00

woo. just back from lan..

left home around 6.30.. went to meet jun darlings at tm for dinner.. she last minute wanna tag along wif me n ber for movie.. so ok lo haha.. heng she nvr puke =X.. finish movie about 11 den jun go home le so i n ber go to lan ler..

watched Resident Evil 3.. its such a dead movie.. *get the joke*? zombies.. undead.. dead.. ok cold joke.. lack of slp is lidat.. xD.. seriously, its a nice movie.. nx on my list is BALLS OF FURY... woooooooooots... see trailer already luff.. movie suree mouth cramp.. haha..

lan was not bad lahs. though just me n ber buddy but quite fun. yet quite dulan. coz bayus we nvr complete due to i kena a fucking lame bug which i cant control my hero. den obviously it died la -.-..

sehhhss.. wisdom tooth operation in 2days.. ok this one i REALLY scared le.. coz is my problem tooth now.. but at least i noe wat to expect le bahs.. again 1week mc ler.. starting to fill up my schedule coz i surely STILL CAN GO OUT!! haha.. any one wanna book me? =D =D =D

2007-10-06T14:16:00.000+08:00

i duno hw to blog or even recount wats been happening.. all messy.. yet somehw the path for everyone seems clearer due to some turn of events.. anyway i called to enquire abt my overseas posting le.. i wont make it for the NOV one.. most prob i'll only be going at FEB nx year.. the charbo there oso said i still on the primary list.. so once i settle all my admin stuff.. they sure will eyeball me n send me off asap lers.. so i still hav many mths to enjoy sg =).. and other things..

feeling kinda stone now.. but its a common feeling which i've grown to get used to over the past yr or so.. wont reali proceed to wonder why some things cant b said or why some things nd to be hidden.. i'll just go out n hav fun wif my butty..

fun.. its created or destroyed by urself.. i've learnt that recently.. which is true.. if u cant hav fun u'd probably nd to think wat went wrong, especially if it was supposed to be fun but last minute ruined.. very general statements but very true if applied correctly..

add-on for someone u know who u are:

dun always expect pple to read ur mind dats all i can say. be it a friend or a loved one. sometimes u nd to be more precise n specific. i dun think i'm tellin u this 1st time oso. and i reali dun care anymore if u hate me or wad for saying all these but its for ur own good dats all. its for the sake of preventing misunderstandings and preventing last minute and unnessary clashes. u know very well wat u sent in ur sms coz u still can repeat it to me. but u also left out a point that u mentioned ur cramps might still be jialat so u'll confirm everything wif me again, and NOT BECAUSE u might hav other plans and nd to confirm whether free to meet me for the day anot.

repeated point: dont expect pple to read ur mind. and dont scold people if they keep guessing, coz u nvr told them anything hence they hav to guess.. things would be alot simpler from the start if u just open ur mouth and giv a answer, or explain urself directly.

u ruined your own day seriously. i still hav my fun plans later at nite.other den that.. nth more to say le.

2007-10-01T19:40:00.000+08:00

heh.. managed to get time off for the whole of tomorrow.. actuali i bluff abit la.. but as usual.. the reason for it is still for her.. so dat i can meet her on time after her work..

went out last friday and saturday.. the only two days i went out in my whole week of mc lol.. but i guess it was still a very good two days.. =D.. went the new fba wif ber,jun,brandon,lod on sat nite.. because initially we went IRC@peninsular plaza.. and the bloody building POWER TRIP!$@#%@%@%@%.. got heng til lidat bo..

became a member there for $1.. and the rates are pretty cheap lehs.. $1.60 per hour.. i mean.. dats the cheapest i've played for a looooooooooong time.. 7hrs oli cost us $11.20.. cheaper den nite pack (although nw no more such thing) =x..

2molo goin out wif aggie lers.. i duno but something, somehow, someway, i feel i shld try again.. any-o-how.. i'll still b happy.. =)

2007-10-01T05:39:00.000+08:00

argh. had a bad dream. but why? argh.. stop doin this to me god.. pls..

2007-09-27T19:15:00.000+08:00

fucking boring.. my wisdom tooth nvr hurt much at all.. but i oso nvr enjoy much.. =/.. ya i cant eat much or open my mouth too big to chew.. but i definitely can go out.. and again everyone already has other appts.. haiz.. gone are the days when i could always look forward to meeting one person.. now even resort to 'hanging out' with my 'friends' in delp.. which sucks.. probably no one will understand why i put the inverted commas..

i embedded a song in the blog.. its below my tagboard.. but cant auto play lehs.. =x.. if u all wanna listen click play k? =)

2007-09-25T15:23:00.000+08:00

back from hospital at 12+?? cant recall le.. all i noe is i come back den use com awhile den i bth le.. the numbness starting to wear off.. so i try go slp.. but i think fever oso come le.. so i just turn n toss.. gettin to slp more le den some idiot call my home.. keep ringing.. zzz wake me up.

can oli open my mouth abit sia.. tryin to eat as much porridge as i can.. eh no is suck the porridge.. =/.. den take medi.. haiz.. doesnt feel gd..

2007-09-25T07:16:00.000+08:00

woo.. better blog smth nw duno if still got energy to sit at comp later anot =x..

last weekend was ok.. met aggie on fri..played some games.. ate ajisen lols.. very long nvr eat le.. talked mostly abt her job.. den walked around bugis street.. lol heng no shopping spree.. but she still spent more den $100.. coz she bought a tee for me oso out of a sudden.. o.o..

on de way home i oso noticed she secretly put de miniature cartier perfume into my bag.. aiyo.. so touched.. thx alot wor.. she did something dat shocked me on the bus oso.. but i just let her rest.. i duno wats it about though.. ready but not ready? hinting but not making a choice yet? or ur just plain tired n mayb u did the same with the other two also.. i've yet to ask though.. =p

and de reason y i might not have energy later is. i goin down alexandra hospital for my WISDOM TOOTH OP lerz... pluckkkkkk~!!.. pain =/ haiz.. these few days i reali wish to hav u beside me.. but i noe is impossible.. too mahfan le.. sigh.

2007-09-21T12:15:00.000+08:00

WOOO U WEET!! WOOHOO!!! I'm goin back to my old unit!!! YEAH!!!

Yaya.. its at yishun.. but it means i'm storeman!! WAHAHHA... I feel so happy.. and safe.. coz i know the clerks n superiors there lers =D.. and they definitely can help me settle all my stuff for overseas posting faster.. =D..

Your Posting Order is listed below:

1.You are posted to HQ ADOC.
2.Your vocation is SUP ASST (COMMS).
3.Your are to report to: Chong Pang Camp, BLK 3, RM #02-23.

Reporting Date/Time:
24/09/2007 at 0800 hrs

wahahahahahhahahah.... =D though i think some things might have changed.. like the bunk.. no longer peaceful.. and i heard from my colleague got FOUR storeman now holy shit.. buuuuuuuuuut... =D HAPPY... =D =D..

2007-09-20T03:02:00.000+08:00

past 2 days was simple.. just rotting at home..

keep thinkin hw things would hav been if not for my fucking attitude last time..

my 2mths in bmt would b a perfectly enjoyable time.. both in camp and out of camp..

even the block leave i have now would be nice n sweet..

but its all a dream.. which will nvr come true le unless i turn back time..

having said that.. time is ticking.. days are passing like nth..

i know very soon it'll be sunday.. and it'll be time to go to my new unit..

as far as the progress regarding a certain issue is concerned.. well i duno if its progressing well or not.. but i know.. time will bring the answer to me one day..

the only ting i headache is how shld i behave or what shld or shld not i do in the meantime..

i teared again ytd or the day b4 after writing n reading some stuff..

i have a very strong regret in me which i think i cannot say at all except.. i wish i hadnt started smth which i tot would be fun for both of us.. just 1mth before i went in NS..

i reali dont know why i'm being put through this.. mayb its to make my heart stronger.. which i think it will be..

or mayb its to really teach me a lesson.. one tight slap to my face or one sharp pierce in my heart.. which i hav also learnt le..

we're meeting this friday.. she suggested it de.. i dont know why but i just felt a high lvl of happiness.. then again mayb its obvious why oso.. as far as my block leave is concerned i suppose this is the last time we'll meet.. unless we arrange for a saturday meeting .. it'll be nice.. can probably catch another movie or smth =]..

It will be good..

2007-09-18T18:25:00.001+08:00

went to meet aggie ytd..

she say she 5.30 finish work.. so i didnt wan to be late.. took a taxi down from home.. end up reach there she insist on meeting bugis straight.. dun noe why.. den become i take taxi to dbg den mrt to bugis.. =/..

reach there le not even 5mins she reach liao.. i suppose dats her.. always hiding reasons..
played IIDX wif her.. both of us noob.. catch toys abit.. ate dinner.. everything was cool n fun =]

overall had a happy time.. but not that happy.. everything seemed so similar yet different.. alot of times i wan to hug her.. hold her hand.. giv her a kiss on her cheek.. but i hav to hold it..

passed her everything i wanted to pass her.. shoes.. the 'supposedly' 2yr6mth anni present.. and a letter.. i knew u still had feelings.. just that u were tired..

but dat was before i realized.. and now.. i realize the hard cold hurting truth..

u can actuali hav feelings for THREE guys.. and its just been 2mths or so..

i wonder are you really worth waiting for..

yes i'm not pressing you for an answer.. but if there's any more impt time to reveal just abit of wats in ur mind and not hiding every single thing, keeping everyone in doubt.. now is the time.. and perhaps the path will seem more clear..

my words in the letter to you are true.. about what i've learnt, about what i feel, about wat i promise you, about what i propose..

i will wait.. and i wont mind watever's happening now.. because i believe the fog and the mist will be clear once the choice is made.. (and yea by saying that i mean if we're back together).. but it doesnt mean i'm blinded by love le.. if i see the need to step aside.. i will.. and as i've mentioned.. that will be the time when its really 'Bye Bye'.

2007-09-02T17:52:00.001+08:00

man this sucks.. one small little downside about being in this new company is dat we always nd report so early at pasir ris to bookin.. coz go tekong still nd time to transport us into the camp.. 4km away from the ferry terminal.. my family hav a wonderful dinner 2dae.. both brothers and nephews oso here.. but i hav to skip.. coz nd be at pasir ris at 6.30.. zzz.. but anyway like i said.. its just a small downside.. haha..

as for my emo issue. i duno.. i hav a better feeling this week.. probably due to that file dat andrew sent me.. some lesson thingy. really broadened my view of all those everyday emotions.. and i learnt hw to master n control them.. talked wif aggie quite abit.. and well.. i hope my feelings are not mislead.. i muz strive hard to work for what i want le..

pop in 10more days.. my parents will be there.. but (most probably?) just my parents oli.. sighs..

hope i can go thru 24km route march and SOC and BAC safely n smoothly oso.. i dowan to come back during my 10day-leave zzz..

2007-08-12T19:26:00.000+08:00

Just decided to share this.. came across this while i was at my previous unit..

As I Mature

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in.

I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people are just assholes.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it.

I've learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. After that, you'd better have a big willy or huge boobs.

I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to others - they are more screwed up then you think.

I've learned that you can keep vomiting long after you think you've finished.

I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, unless we are celebrities.

I've learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades, and there had better be a lot of money to take its place!

I've learned that 99% of the time when something isn't working in your house, one of your kids did it.

I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon and all the less important ones just never go away.

Hmm.. Alot of lessons are similar to what i've learned.. =/